Urban Poly Princess

The dentist was horrible to have to sit through. I had to keep telling myself, this'll be it for awhile and I'm the idiot who hasn't been consistent with my appointments anyway or I wouldn't have to have 2 appointments. He put on my permanent porcelain crown and one of my molars at the very back had the filling come out about 5 years ago. I never had any pain from that although the roots remained back there. He took these out yesterday and told me I'd probably need ibuprofen for that but while I'm taking his advice about not eating crunchy foods like chips for maybe a week, it hasn't bugged me although I'm not using the gauze he gave me anymore because it is sore when I use it. It reminds me a little of my pre-mission appointment where I had to have ALL 4 of my wisdom teeth removed on the same day because the oral surgeon kept saying how I could end up somewhere in the world where they didn't have good dental care available. Of course California was NOT that place!!!

I hope I'm feeling better next week which is when I'd like to see Dr. Guymon my orthodontist supposedly for my final retainer to use at night BUT I still don't like the FINAL results because I STILL don't see anything happening where my bonding used to be even if it is very slight. I want the lab to give me AT LEAST 1 more aligner BEFORE my final retainer. Dr. Guymon's in-house adjustments haven't been enough for me because they NEVER addressed that despite having adjustments made supposedly to my aligners. The aligners do a much better job than I thought they would and they work very fast. I'm just not satisfied and he needs to do what I want to do since I'M THE ONE PAYING FOR THE DAMN TREATMENT. I'm glad ALL of this is about OVER.

It's been extremely fast and effective. If I hadn't had the bonding this would ALL be over now.

My period has been running like a river these past 2 days. It is VERY irritating. I miss those days when a tampon would take care of it. I miss wearing regular tampons. Superplus is the only thing I've bought the past 5 years. Now I wear a tampon AND a pad just so I don't have to change my sheets more than once a day. High school was MUCH better. Even my mission was alright. I do have cramps and feel crappy sometimes but nothing like some of my friends get and it's never bad enough for me to need over-the-counter painkillers.

My flow has been so bad that I've ruined chairs at the library when I worked for Salt Lake County twice and had the fun of telling the custodians and letting them try to get blood out of chairs I stained. I'm VERY glad we have these black wire office chairs at Stevens-Henager although our chairs in the conference room are cushiony and I had to just leave a meeting one day because I was afraid of leaking through. I double my protection AND I try to wear workout pants under my pants or dress so if it does leak through it hits that first layer before I need to change. I can't wait until this STOPS although I'm going to have 3 daughters first. Alisa had her tubes tied after baby #9. Maybe that's why I'm going to get married pretty quickly.

Spiritually I've never met anyone as confident as me about what his role will be in the church. I knew that when I got my patriarchal blessing at 14. It's why I've studied the priesthood and keys as much as I have. That ALONE should be enough to convince me and induce forgiveness and patience BUT he is NOT what I was expecting. I'm probably not either and really he's not that bad. I kept expecting him to mess up again BIG-TIME but he hasn't although I'm not naive enough to think any of this is going to be a cake-walk.

Every minute will be work and I know having a roommate, even if it is my husband, is going to take compromise I haven't even conceived of yet BUT I think I FINALLY get that it is NORMAL and required of ANY people raised in different families who choose to live together. Being that vulnerable with ANYONE is NOT what I want BUT I get intellectually anyway why it is a principle of the gospel. How else can we progress as much as we need to if we don't get married. When will we EVER have to have more humility and eliminate our pride. Then there's childbirth and extreme physical pain. Being responsible for someone else's entire existence. I'm grateful for the opportunities I've had to work with children and then also my brother's kids are just AMAZING. Kids bring so much joy that the work getting them here AND raising them is negligible.

I am sooo glad his work is such that it isn't going to require him or me to remain in the Dairyland. I'm glad my AC made me consider moving to the Falls at Riverwoods. I thought those condos by the Riverwalk were the only place I'd consider moving to since they're on the right side of town. Real Estate is always a good investment but I don't really want to own property in the Dairyland because it would require me to visit to maintain it. My new home is perfect because it has all the amenities I want BUT it is still cheap enough for me to handle everything if I have to for a couple of years. As an OLDER newlywed the studio or crappy basement apartment is NOT an option.

I have no idea how much my friend makes as a research assistant BUT I suspect it may not even clear a thousand a month. Fine for a TEMPORARY in-school thing BUT NOT long-term. I can find out actually since he works for a public institution. Wherever I go I want to teach Zumba and online composition. I also plan to work at a public library part time when I have children BUT ALSO be professionally active so I know people in my industry ALL the time. My kids however are ALWAYS the first priority. NO my husband is ALWAYS going to be the first priority FOLLOWED by my children-MY FAMILY is the priority.

I just did a search for how much my friend makes and he makes a couple hundred dollars MORE a year than I do now. So MUCH for having the worst paid Master degree!!! Yeah I DON'T have to support ANYONE and that makes me feel A LOT better.

A full-time public librarian in Salt Lake County would make around 50,000 a year. After 10 years experience it would move to 65-80,000 with the higher scale restricted to management. My friend was probably making over 150,000 in the field when he was working full time and that would be JUST with a bachelor degree.

I finished this Korean drama That Winter the Wind Blows last night. The acting was top-knotch even if it was filled with outlandish dramatic story-lines. Of course that's why I watch!!!