Urban Poly Princess

I am so grateful for my blessings. I was thinking about Rich and how amazing he is. I know for sure now I would marry him in a heartbeat if I didn't have that dramatic revelation about him. That is WITH his divorce, ex-wife, 4 kids and desire to live in Mendon to be near his children. He is spiritually strong enough, even with his carnal tendencies, brilliant, fine, dresses well and fun. If I hadn't specifically been led away from him I would've gone there easily. He is as amazing as he told everyone he is and I love that he knows that.

Although it took me awhile to warm up to the idea, I would marry my friend too. He is just as smart and fun, attractive and doesn't have all the baggage Rich brings. I get the sense that I would have to work very hard on my weaknesses with him and that I would have to develop myself more. I would actively become a better person. Spiritually he is exactly what I want but I would have to develop my communication skills a whole lot. His personality is very different from mine but his weaknesses are very similar. We both have short tempers. That would be the first thing we'd both have to learn, to be more effective communicators.

I am grateful I was able to meet both of them. It makes me feel good that there are men out there I could marry and enjoy who are members. It is pretty weird they are both 1/2 Chinese. I really like that about both of them too. I REALLY don't want to marry someone just white but uh since I live in Utah AND Cache Valley now the chances of me meeting someone else that isn't just white are slim to none. Their existence is a great thing for me. I met both of them in my ward so despite my annoyance at how unattractive the men are there, they are both attractive to me AND they both attended or attend my ward now.

They make me feel great about my ward and about the possibility of finding my husband there.