Urban Poly Princess

I looove Saturdays about as much as I looove Fridays!!! I looove the temple. I went there on my lazy day yesterday. Today I'm going to complete the intimidating stack of paperwork to finish processing my bankruptcy. This is going to take FOREVER!!! I know I just need to do it. The previous attorney would've charged me $800 AND I'd have to complete the paperwork entirely B4 any filing occurred. I was VERY FORTUNATE to find someone who was willing to work with me. This is mostly going to be another lazy day although I may venture out to fax these to my attorney. I FINALLY feel like I have a handle on my finances although this was a pretty dramatic way to do that. Everything else I tried didn't work. After being garnished this was the ONLY ALTERNATIVE left. I feel like I've been away from my ward forever although it was only 1 weekend. I'm going visiting teaching early tomorrow or at 10am-early for me!!! We usually go at 11 and 11:30am. I talked to Lynn Lemon the county executive Thursday. He was unable to schedule an interview for me with the people he needs to be present. He said he'd schedule it for next week instead. I'd love the job and the challenge. If that doesn't happen I'll be seriously looking and hoping to move somewhere we have a Stevens-Henager College or sister school. I'd looove to move to San Diego BUT I'd need a significant raise to do that. Salt Lake would be great too since I wouldn't have to pay rent AND I could work in Provo rent free too with my brother although I'd probably feel obligated to help out there too. Wherever I go its time to get OCD about fitness again. Alisa looks fantastic. I saw her at the BBQ and I'm used to seeing her all fit and slim now. I want to be a zumba instructor too like her. She looks great and if she can do it with the 9 gorgeous nieces and nephews of mine I REALLY have no excuse. I looove how life always gives us more challenges. I know I need to get married and I know my guidance there I'm just REALLY NOT FEELING IT. That needs to be what I give my priority to I just have no clue. I feel like I've done everything I possibly can and I want some different guidance. FREE AGENCY is sacred whatever guidance you get. I don't feel like praying about this anymore although I know that's when I'm supposed to do it even more. This just sucks. I'm READY for something different. I'm over this BUT my guidance isn't complying with me. I did pray about this AGAIN in the temple. I don't like feeling stupid and following the spirit is making me feel that way now so I'm just ignoring it because I don't know what else to do.