Urban Poly Princess

I had fun with David at fhe. I miss him. Spending time with him reminded me of all the things I like. BUT I miss being in control. I read my last post-my last JEALOUS post. I'm NOT going to ask whether he went to the temple with Camilla OR ask about that girl with the long hair and the timid annoying mouse voice/face-OK-I will limit the petty stuff to my BLOG-that's what it's here for-for me to vent and then behave like a sane person!!! Sooo here I am AGAIN. An idiot AGAIN. I'm an emotional basketcase AGAIN and I can't even blame it on my period because it's DONE now!!! AND it's left me with a MONSTER ZIT right between my eyebrows. I haven't been a teenager in over 20 years. I know how to take care of my skin which is why I don't pop the thing. It'll go away WITHOUT a scar if I just keep it clean BUT SO NOT WHAT I WANT ON MY FACE NOW OR EVER!!! GRRR..... Of course David is half Chinese so he looks 12 and has perfect skin. MORE GRRR..... It's not like I want him to have bad skin or look different-it's just not a confidence booster to chat with him when my skin is acting up. The biggest culprit of break-outs is stress so my little break-down right now is NOT beneficial to clearing this up at all. Vicious cycle. I have an intellectual freedom committee meeting tomorrow so I won't have to work until much later. Of course that means I'm working until 9:30pm tomorrow. BUT then I'm done for the weekend sooo not bad actually. I do FINALLY feel like David and I really are friends again which is great. That needs to be developed whatever happens or doesn't. Alright I'm feeling some sanity filter in now. Yes, my blogging therapy is effective!!! This is why we are told to write in our journals. We need to frequently look at ourselves and figure out if our life is moving to joy!!! We usually know what's stopping that. I usually do when I sit there and write stuff. I feel fine now. Where did that psycho-breakdown thing come from? Things really are fine and great. I'm so thankful for sooo many blessings. For the examples of great people and for the spirit that is my constant companion and guide even when I would ignore its direction.