Urban Poly Princess

So I know the days of the week!!! Last night was presidency meeting. While there was nothing unusual about it I began to think about how I have friendships with other women. Erin was discussing Gena Packer in our ward and how she's on the periphery. I'm on the periphery myself. Erin, Jodie and Lauresa discussed how she needs good friends who include her in activities outside of church. I'm not a good female friend. I feel like I have too many of them. I don't really get close to people and I don't need that BUT maybe I'm supposed to be a friend to other people more.

I like this BUT I'm wondering if I need to change it. I don't think I need to do that BUT people seem to think I do. I wonder if this is what heavenly father wants me to do. Just because I don't need people to be my friend doesn't mean I don't have to be a friend to other people. I am Gena's visiting teacher. Erin was saying how some people are uncomfortable with Gena because she's all about fashion and they don't know how to take that. I love fashion too. I need to just visit Gena and maybe do lunch with her.

Carline is a good person too and she has said she wants us to hang out. I didn't really answer her when she told me that BUT I know I can do that. She irritates me a little but not nearly as much as Jen does. Then there's my friend Jonni who consistently invites me to things even if I don't attend all of them.

Guys I've just learned if I'm not interested to just keep them at a distance. They ALWAYS want more. It doesn't matter what you do. Actually Chris Egbert is the BEST. He can be friendly WITHOUT going there. My friend Jen Uharriet I think isn't secure in her relationship with her boyfriend because she stopped coming to choir and she's NEVER introduced us. A lot of women get insecure around me. I think it's just stupid. If men are going to be interested in me just because I'm pretty that is alright initially BUT if there's nothing in common there they need to move the hell on!!!

I'm going to try to develop my female friendships more. I just DON'T like clingons!!! I didn't have any good excuses for why I can't be a better friend to Gena last night. I wonder if this is why I was put in the presidency. Is this part of stretching myself. I don't think there's anything wrong with NOT wanting to do the female bonding thing. I should bake cookies tonight for ALL the wonderful helpers in town who assisted me with my interviews to complete my thesis.

Robert, Ginny, Shawn, Richard and Julene should be at the CVLA meeting tomorrow. They all helped me so much. I should also drop by and see Jessica Olson, Lisa Hancock, Jenn and Marci. I also want to meet Brandy Reeves. I guess I know a lot of USU employees.

3 Nephi 4
33 And their hearts were swollen with joy, unto the gushing out of many tears, because of the great goodness of God in delivering them out of the hands of their enemies; and they knew it was because of their repentance and their humility that they had been delivered from an everlasting destruction.


The Gaddianton robbers who wage war lack food and it becomes difficult for them to just eat let alone destroy the Nephites. I am glad the Nephites felt such gratitude and humility with their victory.

A Sure Foundation - Dean M. Davies
In like manner, if we do not provide for an appropriate balance in our lives of daily personal prayer and feasting from the scriptures, weekly strengthening from partaking of the sacrament, and frequent participation in priesthood ordinances such as temple ordinances, we too are at risk of being weakened in our spiritual structural strength.


Balance is needed all the time.