Urban Poly Princess

FHE assembled blessing bags for the homeless. I was hoping to see Steve there but I didn't. That still doesn't tell me anything for sure. He doesn't owe it to me to tell me where he is although he did? Moab with his sister I think? Maybe? I'm not making any assumptions although he could be with someone he is interested in. I haven't seen Yuri. Maybe he likes her. It doesn't make sense that he'd ignore her to spend time with me at that one FHE however which is why I always doubted his interest in her but who knows, things can change.

I do know that Steve is comfortable in his single life and he reminds me a lot of myself. That fact that he is faithful gives me some hope that he will take the steps to get to know me or anyone really that he needs in order to fulfill the measure of his creation. I can't sit around waiting for him to suddenly see the light however and I will give this until 1 Sunday after conference before I start looking elsewhere. As much as I like him I need to fill the measure of my own creation asap. I REALLY don't want to have to leave the singles ward because I age out.

It took forever to post Ila's wedding pictures. I am happy I took them however. I took a nice selection of a variety of people and decor. Today I am feeling like I am either starting a cold or allergies. After Zumba I slept until noon which my body probably needed. I love my life and I love the gospel. He has been checking me out for a long time. Why he'd suddenly avoid me is beyond me although it is hard for me too and I get that. Whoever ends up with Steve is a lucky lady but then whoever ends up with me is just as fortunate.

I am waiting to hear what will go down for uncle Kingi's funeral. Aunty Lini and uncle Tai are attending. They are the only siblings my dad has left now. I miss him so much. What makes me miss my uncle the most are the things that remind me of my father.