Urban Poly Princess

I love starting my mornings with EMZ. What I really love is I kept thinking I'd be hanging in class since I didn't go for over a month BUUUT it appears my cardio could handle that break without incident. This week I'm just limiting my workouts to that but I want to incorporate an evening Zumba session and weights. I have my adjustable dumbbells so I need to get on that. I tried to begin eating well but that is difficult when I am not buying what I want to eat.

My mother has her limited basic cable now. I think I'm just going to get the internet and netflix. I was paying her my portion - digital tv and the net but I warned her my unemployment was ending Tuesday so she cut it off. I don't know why I was stressing about the temple. I can work Saturday morning if I have to do that. I've done it before.

While there was no good time for me to talk to Steve I want to see if he'll go with me to that Tongan wedding this weekend. These are real dates to me. People take their friends to these things a lot of times and are all concerned about them getting the wrong idea. I AM INTERESTED IN HIM AND I DO LIKE HIM. If he doesn't feel the same way that's fine but I don't want him to just go with me to help me out because he is nice like that and he would do something like that. In that case I don't want any time with him and it is better if he doesn't go WHICH IS WHY I WANTED TO TALK TO HIM LAST NIGHT BUT THE OPPORTUNITY DIDN'T PRESENT ITSELF.

GRRR... I hope I get a chance to do that tonight at the Aquarium. Brasilia doesn't can't be there until 7pm but that doesn't mean I can't go first at 6pm and hopefully find and talk to Steve. We're not anything more than friends but only because how the hell can we be more if we don't spend time together first and find out if we even want more. Now I do but who knows. HOWEVER I'm NOOOT interested in hanging out as friends just meant to be friends. I am a friend who wants more.

I want to know about his social life and if he dates as much as I think he does. I'm not interested in spending time with him at all these group activities ALTHOUGH right now that is good too. I want to find out if we can be more soon so I can move on if it isn't going to happen.