Urban Poly Princess

My friend Nick didn't show and I barely made it in time for the movie but I did.

Steve was looking great and he is great AND I really tried to talk to him AND I did but I was freaking out because nothing is wrong with him. First I kept thinking I didn't want to get to know him better because he didn't attend graduate school and I want to get to know someone intelligent and although there are many intelligent people without graduate degrees, since I have one it is extremely important to me. If you are in my ward you have to be 31 AND if you are that age and haven't figured out what you want to do with your life AND haven't received at least a master degree AND are working in your field making at the verrry least 50,000 a year you are doing something wrong.

BUUUT Steve has his MPA which is sooo good to me. I like that he checks all the boxes off of my mental list. He did serve a mission and that was the only thing that I didn't like, that he possibly didn't serve one BUUUT he did HALLELUJAH!!! So why the damn freakout? I don't have anything to use for an excuse anymore to NOT get to know him better and I want to do that so I don't know why I'm freaking out. Probably because I've never met someone before with ALL the qualities I like who just happens to be in my ward.

His biggest strength is his testimony. I always wanted someone who is GA material AND brilliant AND kind AND fine AND who is done with graduate school AND has a job that could support a family if he wanted that. At first I thought I was scared to get to know him better because I could see right away how strong he is spiritually and I didn't want someone who was weak in other areas and I was afraid I'd fall for him anyway because of how strong he is spiritually.

I guess the only conclusion I can make is I am an idiot. What I should have done is waited until he was the only one left there, asked him where he was parked and then just get to know him better already. Why is that scary when he is everything I want? This is a good problem to have. I don't know why it is so difficult for me. He is never difficult to talk to and he didn't walk away tonight -that was me.

I want to go through a drive-through but I'm not hungry. I need to get to know Steve better and while I did that a little it wasn't nearly enough and that is all on me. I need to get it together.