Urban Poly Princess

This is the last week I get my unemployment check. It's hard to believe I collected EVERYTHING. The first time I've ever got unemployment and I take EVERYTHING available to me AS LONG as it was available to me. I'm not worried about it and it freaks me out a little that I am so strangely calm about the whole thing. I told Julie how I felt and she said not to worry about it. Other people have told me the same thing. Overall however I am calm and weirded out that I am so calm. My leg is sooo much better although I planned to wear stilettos yesterday and then my leg reminded me that it isn't ready yet. It is however time to return to Zumba although I'm staying out this week too.

Carlos came to dinner at Brent's house last night. He is awesome. I am so glad he is in to real estate. He encouraged me a lot at our pi party and gave me a lot of great hints. He lives in Draper which is why he doesn't attend a lot of activities. It is just too far for him to have to keep traveling. It is something that bothered me about Steve since he attends our ward but he doesn't live in the boundaries. I asked him about that yesterday and he told me they asked him to stay in the ward when he moved because they needed the male population in the ward. Interesting and sad.

It really is a man's world if you are LDS and single. He made an interesting comment. I was joking when I said it was simply a reflection of the Celestial kingdom. He said he wondered about the balance eternally. Polygamy makes it only follow that men will have several wives in the afterlife. ALTHOUGH my friend Lei is with her 2nd husband who raised 3 of the kids she had with her 1st plus had 2 more with her. He's served as a bishop and has been with her the longest of course now. I know her first husband and I was in his ward when he was single.

She has said she has faith God will work it all out. Of course he will. Having to share my husband doesn't sit well with me at all. I am not worried however. Even in polygamy there is a stratified system with the first wife enjoying her queen-bee status. I don't think Heavenly Father wants any of his daughters to feel inferior in any way. How does a 2nd wife feel? I'd rather be a serving angel. I have faith that however it comes to pass it will be something I will find my greatest joy through. However that comes to pass remains to be seen but I know I will be fine and even elated with the outcome.

I am good with Steve. I am happy I talked to him yesterday. I know I'll have many opportunities to get to know him better even if I never wanted to do that. He is always at sealings, sessions and FHE. This is part of why I was so wary. I have constant evidence of his worthiness. While that is the most important thing to me, other things are also important to me.

I love that Steve is friendly to everyone but it also concerns me a little. He needs to ask me out eventually as in SOON!!! I am not going to waste time on someone who has no intention of progressing in his life. People can accuse me of the same thing however so I have to be a little lenient here.

Sister Bevan posted a pi picture party with the table filled with pies. Annoying is also in the picture. I don't wish him any ill will but I don't want to be his friend either. I know this is his old ward and I want him to feel comfortable attending whatever he wants. What I don't like is the feeling he told people he had to avoid me and so they and other people intentionally didn't invite me to things. I know Mike had a superbowl party he didn't invite me to although he has invited me to other things. He did invite annoying. I also didn't like when I saw him all over the place in Logan and he took pains to deliberately avoid running into me. Ex-boyfriends haven't disrespected me like that.

Steve told me most of his friends went to the Bountiful ward with the split. I don't think he's annoying's Facebook friend but I've never checked. I think I need to do that. Just checked and he's not which is fantastic. :)