Urban Poly Princess

I don't know why I didn't think Steve might have a date to the Aquarium. He was with Katie and Bryce when I first saw him in the Shark tunnel so I thought he was on a group outing since he does that all the time. I even had him come over and take a picture with me and I was thinking great now I have a chance to talk to him about the weekend but then he left as soon as he could do that and not be rude since his friends INCLUDING his date left him there. If I was his date I would've left him there too. Later we saw him alone with Katie and I realized they were on a date. Katie is really sweet and I wouldn't have called him over if I knew he was on a date. Poor Steve, I put him in a bad position. That was not intentional. Sooo a week ago he had some sort of cooking date with Yuri and then the date with Katie last night so no one exclusive. That is good.

I need to talk to him in person. I'm not going to look up his telephone number or Facebook him. If some guy asked me out that way it DEFINITELY wouldn't work at least not initially. When you are dating someone that's alright but NOT if you never have done anything with them. I really wanted him to come with me to help me dodge all those people I'll have to deal with this weekend. So much for that bright idea. I could just get anyone but I'm not going to waste my time with anyone I'm not interested in. I thought of messaging him if he could do lunch with me at Panda's in WJ since he seems to like their food. BUUUT yeah NO JOB AND NO MONEY means I need to conserve that gas just to attend all of Ila's things.

Tongan weddings are huge and awesome BUUUT also annoying as hell. The sealing is Friday at 11am. I have to attend, smile a lot, take pictures and kiss a billion people I haven't seen in awhile as well as talk about what I'm doing. I don't have a damn job so that's going to be a blast. Usually it's just telling people NOOO I'm not seeing anyone and NOOO I don't want to meet your cousin, nephew, brother, uncle who is usually divorced or has children BECAUSE YES I want to support their stupid broke ass.

They also are usually not strong in church. I'm such a fabulous solution for them. ORRR it's the lecture from hell that everyone thinks they need to lay on you that consists of how I'm too picky and that there are spirits wanting to come down from heaven that I'm preventing by remaining single. ALSO I MUST have committed a multitude of sins since I don't have my own family. Sooo I am excited for Ila but sooo not looking forward to this hell-on-earth that'll accompany his celebration for me.

I'm grateful for EMZ. I'm also grateful for my temple shift I get to serve tonight from 3 until it closes. I can't believe how hard I tried to ask Steve out. EVERYTHING I tried failed so maybe it's just not meant to be. I don't like that he dates a lot of women. I know he's supposed to do that but he just seems very comfortable in his single life. I hope he asked Katie AND Yuri out because if he thinks I'm going to normally he is sadly mistaken. I really can't believe after all the flirting I've done with him he hasn't done a damn thing. I need to stick with my original plan and eliminate him if nothing happens by the end of April.

I have my initiatory down cold thanks to practicing whenever I'm driving in the car by myself. I want to do it tonight. I don't want to have to change my shift but I will if I have to do that.