Urban Poly Princess

I've never been to a pi party before so I'm excited for this one although last night Katie told me she is throwing a party as well so there will be competing pi parties. I was happy to attend my first May the 4th party last year. I hope enough people show up. Competing parties with both women from the same ward is going to at least split the attendance. Darcy invited me first and I accepted so that is the one I'll be attending. AND Katie didn't invite me to her party anyway but I don't think there's anything wrong with that because I don't know either of them very well.

I'm excited because I've never had friends before who would even want to throw a pi party. Very nerdy but so nerdy it's cool and I like that kind of nerdiness/goofiness. It's the same thing with the May the Fourth Party. I never had friends into that either, who glory in their nerdiness. Since I had no choice but to attend a family ward or the Midsingles ward when I moved to Logan I learned to expand my circle of friends. It is hard sometimes for me but then it's not that hard anyway.

I've always known Steve has lots of female fans. I don't like that at all but then what did I expect. I also like that he gets along with everyone. I'm pretty sure that was part of my knee-jerk reaction when I left the Joseph Smith Memorial Building because he started talking to this girl in my ward too AND I HATE BEING JUST ONE OF MANY IN A DAMN HAREM. NOT HAPPENING!!! Of course I want him to be friendly and it is stupid to react that way. He's probably been friends with many women in the ward a long time and it's not like I want him to ignore people he knows.

HOWEVER I like him enough to know I want to get to know him better as in date him and NOT in a group and I've seen lots of evidence of his group dating all over the place. I didn't want to like him but I do and I am committed to getting to know him better if he lets me. I hope he's not avoiding me. I wish I'd see him tonight but if he attends a party it'll probably be Katie's since he works with her in FHE. Of course he could have another date tonight too. I just hope he's in church Sunday. I know I sent him mixed signals by leaving Monday but while it isn't hard for me, I haaate initiating stuff ESPECIALLY with men. I know I need to get a grip. I think I have a handle on the princess diva attitude but sometimes it rears its ugly head with all of its ridiculousness.

What to eat now. I intend to eat pie the entire day!!!