Urban Poly Princess

EMZ was great as it always is. I looove it still. I've been wearing my compression socks and I really hope it makes a difference. I took my shower and got ready to attend Ila's sealing. I didn't really worry about time feeling like I had all the time in the world. I suddenly noticed I needed to leave at 10:30 am when I should've been at the temple waiting to enter the sealing room.

On the freeway I remembered where my recommend was on my desk in my room. I had absolutely NOOO time left so I decided to just go anyway and try to get in despite my screw-up. I knew if I was late to the sealing I could maybe make it in time for the line that congratulates the newly married couple. As I waited for the recorder to make calls to see if he could let me in I took off my shoes so I could enter if they let me. Meanwhile a couple approached the desk to attend the sealing. We all entered the elevator at the same time to get to the sealing room. We quickly donned socks when a lady told us they had begun and we could wait there to congratulate them when it was done.

So I did that along with the other couple. I'm so glad I made it for that at least. Ila looked fantastic. I'm so proud of him. Tiare looked beautiful too although I think Ila looks better but I'm probably just biased. As I exited the temple I saw Jasmine and her new husband. She kissed me. Yes I was definitely at a Poly function. Emili kissed me hello as did the entire receiving line consisting of the 2 witnesses and the bride and groom. I saw Leola as I was putting on my shoes. I wore these chunky sandals. I think I'll be ready for stilettos next month. As I exited I saw Haini and his new wife who were married a week ago in San Francisco.

I saw West Jordan's office on my way to the temple. I used to work in Herriman and Riverton sometimes as a substitute so I think I know the fastest way to those areas - I-15, 215 belt route, south on Redwood until 90th then Bangeter to to appropriate South. I thought I could run and see Steve and ask him to go to the dance and the reception IN PERSON!!! That is what I wanted. Sooo after the sealing instead of hanging around to take a million pictures like everyone else I went to see Steve. I didn't really think about what I was doing until I was in his elevator on my way to where I assumed his office was. I'm not sure why but the elevator made me think I am a stalker and I shouldn't do this but I felt like I was already there so why stop now.

It's not like I had a spiritual prompting stopping me from making a fool of myself. How else was I ever going to see him in person. One of the ladies in his office told me he hadn't even been in today. Friday, yes that means he is probably having a blast somewhere out-of-town on one of his many outings. Maybe using one of the 5 pairs of hiking pants he owns. I'm actually sure he owns more since those were just the ones he needed to hem.

I cannot believe I did that. Since I spoke to the lady in the admin office who told me where Steve's office was, some guy in that area and then some lady who asked me if I needed help I had to tell him and asap. I am a chicken because at that point I should've looked up his number in our ward directory and called him to confess BUUUT instead I Facebooked him. EXACTLY what I want to avoid doing ever. Steve has game and meanwhile I am sucking at developing our friendship.

Yesterday I called the lady I interviewed with at the City Library to see what was going on with that Librarian Assistant position. She said she'd email me a copy and that there were still openings. WITHIN the hour I got an email from their human resources saying they would not be interviewing me AFTER just being told there were openings.

I feel like I can't get a damn job to save my life. The County meanwhile emails me stating I need to complete my application. I call them frustrated. I didn't check some box that'll make my application complete and submitted as of today. I want to scream. I want to work for the County, I loved being a substitute librarian with the County. The City library is extremely liberal which gets on my nerves. I refuse to be a flower child. I want ALL the toys AND I'm going to make the money to get them!!! I don't know why this has proven to be so hard. I always thought once I finished school the worry would be which job to take instead of what the hell am I going to do if I STILL don't find a job.