Urban Poly Princess

Last night was so hot I used my AC then sometime during the night it became cold BRRR!!!

Mosiah 27
36 And thus they were instruments in the hands of God in bringing many to the knowledge of the truth, yea, to the knowledge of their Redeemer.

Everyone seems to have some dramatic story about how they changed their life and started to live as a follower of Christ. I don't have that. I was raised in the church and I've always known it was true and that my life would be happier as I aligned it with my beliefs. 

I always thought I was spiritually fine UNTIL I learned more and grew more spiritually then I could look back at how clueless I really was.

My friend Elenoa came over tonight as she did Sunday AND Saturday. Tonight she was talking to me about how friendly some of her friends are who text her back. She's texted me a few times which I just ignored. I am NOT trying to spend all my damn time with her ALTHOUGH she has no problem doing the same. I just do what I need to do when she comes over but STILL I couldn't finish this like I wanted to do. Why is she such a freakin clingon? I CAN'T STAND THAT!!! 

It's like having a boyfriend you are OVER but you keep prolonging ending it because they are so nice but FINALLY one day you just have to do it or GO CRAZY. I looove the gospel and that is ALL she wants to talk about ALL THE TIME. I DO NOT enjoy hanging out with her. It's stifling. I need to get married I DON'T want to waste my time with her and I've done enough female bonding. I don't need anymore. I'd rather get to know guys more and actually FIND my eternal companion. I want to work out more BUT when I feel like being alone she needs to get the hell away from me. GRRR!!!

I'm doing my laundry now. Don't people enjoy their alone time? She reminds me of Carline only I can't get rid of her. I'm wishing she didn't know where I live. I don't text her back and I make absolutely no effort to get together with her. Doesn't that give you a clue I DON'T WANT TO HANG OUT WITH YOU???!!! 

After emailing my entire relief society to see if anyone could take the sisters and Justin to the Martin Harris Pageant, ONLY Marinda agreed to do it. I called the sisters to tell them what I arranged but they said Justin agreed to drive us there. That means I will still see the pageant. Why is it so hard to find people willing to be Justin's friend? I don't mind friendshipping I just wish there were some guys willing to go the extra mile AND it's not even that difficult to be a friend to someone. 

I went to the North men's priesthood meeting JUST to see if anyone could join us for dinner and his 3rd discussion NO ONE would do it. I didn't go to the South because I didn't want to ask them in front of him. Porter took him there and he's in the South too. I am grateful Matt, Lauresa and Mark attended. It is awkward friendshipping a guy. He is a cutie too. 

Sister Sonasi is so sweet she told everyone how she loves going places with me and that she feels like we're the same age. I told her she should always feel that way. There is a sweet Samoan girl named Lily at Stevens-Henager College. She was raised in California and she's 
not LDS. She met with sister missionaries in her area but she she stopped saying quitting smoking is too difficult and that she does too many bad things.

I told her I attend an old singles ward and she wouldn't enjoy it but she wants to come with me. I should just start fellowshipping her. I just don't know how to help. I probably should figure out what ward she is in and start attending with her until she can gain some friends there. 

I'm not sure exactly how to do that yet. I need to pray about it because I know she is open to the gospel and she will embrace it just given the opportunity to do so. Hastening the work is going to require more than I first supposed. 

I want to know what type of missionary my friend was and how he views and does missionary work now. He doesn't have to be perfect BUT it is a total dealbreaker. I'd like to figure this out asap whenever he shows up here again.

Obedience Brings Blessings - President Thomas S. Monson