Urban Poly Princess

It isn't in his voice and it doesn't address what the hell I was concerned about in the first place. It's like someone read my p.s. message and answered it as Steve. I only wrote that Facebook message BECAUSE I went to his work because I didn't want to go to Ila's wedding without . I a date ESPECIALLY after I saw Haini at the sealing and found out he was married a week ago. Steve didn't come to church today which supports the message that said he was going to attend his home ward now. Darren didn't attend church either but he is ALSO gone somewhere for the weekend. I wonder if he'll be at FHE. Conference is the following weekend so I have to wait long for me anyway to tell.

I have pretty much told Steve IN PERSON how I feel about him. That message was BECAUSE I felt bad about going to his work without a heads up and then he wasn't even there. I felt like a stalker and I had to tell him. He may have let someone write that message to me and he may feel the way it said BUUUT I don't think so. It's like they told me he turned 46 to turn me off when that age is very attractive to me. Neither of us look our age although I think I look a little younger.

I'm not going to accept that message. There are too many holes in it. I really hope Steve hasn't left our ward and I really don't think he has but I will deal with reality and any interaction I've had with him has been fabulous. He has been perfect and I'm not letting anyone but him screw this up. If he really is interested in someone else I am fine with that because I want him to be happy even if it isn't with me. I don't like that he disappeared on me but it is also alright.