Urban Poly Princess

We played Bocce Ball. I've never played it before. There were a variety of people there men AND women. All of David's fans were NOT assembled together under the guise of FHE. So NORMAL-nothing too exciting however and/or nothing bad either. Nolan talked about hunting a little. David said he could see me shooting goats. I do want to shoot guns BUT at inanimate TARGETS, NOT at anything living. If I had to kill my own meat I'd become vegetarian. I'd like to think my meat comes from the store in styrofoam and under plastic AND without bones. When we went shooting the first time I was sooo annoyed with David that I deliberately didn't attend FHE JUST to avoid associating with him. I might have shot him then... hahaha NOOO! I could never do that. People are multifaceted. I'm glad I know him better now and that I bothered to even do that. He must have done something great in the preexistence for me to become his friend after everything that went down between us. I was sooo over him then and irritated beyond belief because the spirit NEVER stopped supporting him and wanted me to lose the attitude DESPITE everything. I didn't care at that point and I deliberately worked against something I knew I should be doing. I'm glad I humbled myself and I'm glad I am doing my part AND making it a priority.

I am making the most important things now a priority. After a few weeks go by I will be able to have my righteous indignation if things aren't how I think they should be. I looove the spirit AND whatever happens I just do what I need to do and all is good!!! I looove life.

David was telling us about how people who feel good about themselves draw people to them. He also made the comment that people are drawn to individuals who are confident yet humble and realize they are imperfect. This is reassuring to others who know the person will be patient with their imperfections and weaknesses too. I like his assessment. I hope I convey humility. I am confident but I don't want to be cocky and I know I can veer that way if I don't check myself. My friend Colton once told me I give off this condescending thing. I don't want that to be a defining characteristic. I saw an ad for a waitress at the new Sushi place at the Logan Kabuki Steakhouse. I told my mother I'd go apply there. She told me not to do that and I'd either quit or get fired. She got me so angry when she told me that. She said if someone was rude to me I'd probably tell them off and leave the job. Either that or throw a drink at them.

Whatever. Even if I fall short, if I am trying as hard as I can, I will still be blessed. When I fall short NOT if-WHEN I do again and again and again. BUT the plan considers that too!

I get to give the FHE lesson for our next fhe which is combined. Mindy was going to have me talk about the joy of forgiveness  BUT I'm NOT feeling that. I asked her if it was alright if I just spoke about something I learned at stake conference.