Urban Poly Princess

Following my amazing institute lesson that discussed the importance of spiritual preparation and gave the best case I heard for beginning my day with meaningful prayer, I stayed up until 3am-I was so wired, I couldn't fall asleep. I started cleaning and I did a load of laundry. I forced myself to get up this morning and drove to work a half an hour early.

I did not have my amazing spiritual preparation with the meaningful prayer I want. Tali from home gave his facebook friends a Book of Mormon challenge that'll end with it done at Christmas. It schedules the reading. I'm doing that too. I didn't get what was happening exactly next Sunday with the temple dedication and regular church meetings. I attended the Draper temple dedication and the Tongan temple dedication recently. The Tongan temple had some remodeling and then was rededicated. It's far from being a new temple.

My Tongan Salt Lake City South Stake showed it at our stake center on satallite. We ALL had to get tickets even if we had current temple recommends. Each time regular church services were held. Supposedly ALL church meetings are cancelled. Weird. I distinctly remember the Draper dedication because it was held at our stake center. I wasn't able to purchase a handkerchief so my mother cut a pice of white material out of something. My phone kept ringing and it was a new phone I didn't know how to put on vibrate. I ended up taking out the battery. I later found out I missed my nephew's farewell AND party. I was so angry with my family. They left voicemail but I never picked any of it up until it was too late. I asked them why they didn't just text me.

The Draper dedication was televised via satellite to our stake center in Kearns. Mosa's farewell was in West Jordan. It's weird to me how they're cancelling all church services that day in my stake. Maybe because my ward normally meets in the stake center. Jonni and I are going visiting teaching Sunday. I confirmed Sarah for 10:30-I just need to do the same with Laura. I'll try for 10:10. My ward dedication time isn't until 3pm. Is EVERY stake in the area NOT having services??? I wonder how many and which ones. Boyd K. Packer is supposed to be performing the dedication. There will be 3 sessions from what I understand. Bro. Salmond was making it sound like the dedication would include ALL members in Utah. Why didn't that happen with Draper or the Oquirrh Mountain temples? Even the conference center dedication didn't do that. I'm going to go to the church website and try to figure this out.

It's my birthday Sunday and I'd like to be spending the day with my mother in Salt Lake City. I could also get my brother to take me to a sushi buffet that weekend. Instead I'll be in Logan. I was going to invite Mikako to come over for dinner since she invited me to her ice-cream birthday celebration but she is visiting a friend in Salt Lake Sunday.

I'm excited about working at the temple. Getting up early is something I hate but I can do it if I have to-I did it on my mission. In fact I'd freak out constantly that I might oversleep so I would wake up before my alarm went off.

I know exactly what my priorities are, I just don't know exactly how that translates into what I should do each day. I am supposed to work on my eternal relationship. I'm trying. I know who that's with and I'm not fighting that. I accept our differences. ANYONE will have differences. I'm trying so hard to temper my princess attitude but it is tough sometimes. It is still difficult for me to believe some of my email messages offended him BUT even with that we resolved it almost instantly which was nice. Whenever I have a misunderstanding or am supposed to do something associated with him I get this gnawing annoying restlessness that doesn't go away until I do something about it. I don't sleep well when that happens. I didn't want to have to wait the entire night and next day to work it out. My attention is divided and my focus is shot.

With some things the way I'm supposed to behave is so obvious. This is not. This better be amazing because I hate having to constantly ask what I should do ALL the time. This is REQUIRING me to have daily personal revelation.