Urban Poly Princess

It is sooo hard for me to get to sleep at night. There are always more things I want to do and not enough time to do it all. I have to force myself to sleep at midnight. Last night I tried but I still got to bed at 12:30.

I read what I wrote last night. I JUST started to prioritize although if I keep telling myself I am it will become reality. I can't believe how close I came to NOT associating with David at all. I had decided I'd attend another FHE at the time. I was sooo ticked. No one has ever disrespected me that much REPEATEDLY. He's not Polynesian and I know it's not fair to judge him by standards he wasn't raised with. I know his testimony is awesome, I know he has amazing qualities. I know he doesn't get that he did anything wrong. It should make it better but it makes it worse. That is all in the past however and I am TRYING to be a sane person who doesn't expect the world to treat her like a princess as much as I'd like that. I'm grateful to my dad for ALWAYS treating me like a princess and for MAKING my brother treat me like one too even when he didn't want to do that. I wouldn't have it any other way.

My blog is even called Urban Poly Princess although now I should dub it Hick Poly Princess since I live on a damn farm. Even that's really not that bad-so the restaurants suck, the stores suck AND there's nothing to do in Logan after midnight-BUT-the church is still true here, people are friendly even if they are oblivious to a lot of things-they are often racist, condescending and rude WITHOUT any idea. It isn't my responsibility to educate the world and I'm not about to do that. Sometimes though it can be tiring.

I am so grateful to the many ward members who helped me the way they did when my car was stuck at Jonni's house. I REALLY needed their assistance and they were there when I needed it in the worst way. Yes people are multifaceted AND even with my frustration about living here, great people served me when I needed it. If I hadn't moved to Logan I wouldn't have even considered getting an MBA. It will help me very much wherever I work as a librarian. It is going to give me the leadership positions I want with the responsibility but more importantly the salary.

I am happy with my life. I'm not going to live here or work here forever BUT it's fine for right now!!!

Institute tonight!!!