Urban Poly Princess

I'm thinking about how I want to go to Maria's wedding Friday. It's at the Rio Grande Ballroom at the Gateway. I'd love to go to a wedding there. I should be content with just going to peach days since the end of the month is going to require me to hit up Springville for ULA's Fall Conference. I can't believe it's on a Friday. I'm off on Fridays already so I won't get to miss work and feel good because I'm getting paid to miss work. Instead I'm using my day off to attend a library conference in Springville. The intellectual freedom committee's presenting. Mosa's wedding is on the 29th in West Jordan. I haven't heard anything about it yet but I'm NOT missing his wedding. I used to live with his family when I first moved to Utah. He was in the 2nd grade and he still sucked his thumb. We used to tease him so much. Before he hit puberty he had this high squeaky mouse voice. When I broke my leg he and Jr took turns watching me because I couldn't drive yet. For about a week they came and stayed at my apartment with me and drove me to work in the morning. They used my car throughout the day and then picked me up when I was done. They've moved me a lot too. I love them both so much. I'm so glad Mosa found someone he wants to spend the rest of his life with. He is 6 "2 now. He's not the cute little boy I could sit on when he ticked me off. I tried that recently and he just laughed. I know he was hit pretty hard by his mother and my cousin's death. He took care of his mom a lot near the end. I always told Mele she spoiled him and that I could tell he was her favorite. At her wake his older brother and sister spoke when they were asked. Mosa just ignored everyone when they asked him so the program had to continue without him speaking.

Sooo ALTHOUGH I'd love to go to SLC  for Maria's wedding, I'll be traveling a lot during the end of the month and that is enough gas and my own physical strength miles to use for September. I can't believe I still have over 1/2 tank left in my car. Curbing my traveling is good for my bank account.

I just had a holiday and I didn't run away to Salt Lake City. That is a good thing. October is Baby Isa's baptism in Provo, November is Thanksgiving and December is Christmas. It's hard to believe how fast time has gone by. It'll be 2013 before I know it.

Wondering again. So is the spirit going to withdraw from me like it did from Moses? I don't doubt God BUT we all have our free agency and I do doubt my friend because he is a man. I hope that's alright. I want the right to be filled with righteous indignation but I know I don't have the right to feel that yet. When I do everything I can, I will have that right. I have to stop running away when I get annoyed. AND I have to stop being annoyed by things that aren't his fault.

My latest thought-last night ALL those new girls came to institute BECAUSE they probably asked him to attend or he told them he was going to attend. Why do I think this? Because that many girls attending together who I know have some degree of interest out of nowhere is strange. Jonni AND Stacey were scanning the parking lot after. Maybe he showed up to hang out with all the women. He doesn't see anything wrong with this. I don't want to find fault with him BUT I think that is wrong. When that many girls think they have a chance with you something is wrong and you are doing something wrong.

I think he's improved a lot. He isn't under some sort of compulsion to flirt with women ALL the time like before. He can interact without doing that. OR my earlier assumption was false. Why so many women though? That he has to be responsible for at least to some degree. I don't think he'd take the reverse well at all. I'd do that just to gauge his reaction if I could do it without hurting anyone.