Urban Poly Princess

While I have always believed it's good to take a step back and think about things before I respond, there is also danger in keeping things inside and NOT dealing with them. Sometimes my immediate response is a knee-jerk reaction that I succumb to and then behave badly. Usually I can control this impulse and eliminate it from my concern. Whatever it is, I learned recently I need to DEAL with it and not IGNORE it. I need to learn how to discuss things immediately but calmly as close to when I experience something and REALLY try to understand. I looove Stephen R. Covey and I hate to quote him all the time BUT his points are seared into my thoughts-Seek first to Understand, then to be Understood.

I know my email probably took David by surprise and that's not entirely his fault ALTHOUGH I'd like to think that-He's not a mind reader and I should have dealt with how I felt about our fondue party experience AND talked to him about it. I thought I could just ignore it away  BUT with his last email I just couldn't believe how much I had grown to hate him. I think the only reason why that happened is because I DIDN'T deal with my feelings as they developed. That became a whole different concern for me. It took me long enough to get over that but I don't hate him now.

He DID let me know about our fhe cancellation BUT I was way more annoyed and angry than the incident warranted. I think part of me just needs to be upset. I had to address how he ignored the parts of my email he wanted to and then recognized what he wanted. While I wanted to know fhe was cancelled, I didn't like that he expects me to acknowledge his texts while he fails to see anything wrong with ignoring mine. So he decides what is important from me and EVERYTHING he decides to send me is important? SOOO WRONG!!! Mindie's sour outlook at our fhe that didn't happen just got me more mad. ANYTHING I suggested that night she kept shooting down. I would like to think they're fine but why all the excuses? Mindie said David was talking about having people be in charge of an fhe and she said ONLY I am willing to do that BUT Monica said at our fondue party that she'd looove to be in charge of an fhe. I think they should give her and whoever else the chance. Being in charge in my mind DOESN'T absolve the fhe leaders of doing anything. BONNIE NOT Becky Fridal in BONNIE'S lesson yesterday talked about how everyone was probably judging her lesson and thinking they could do it better. That IS one of my faults. Maybe David and Mindie really are doing their best and are frustrated.

I think attendance reveals how well you are doing.