Urban Poly Princess

I can't wait!!! I have yet to be disappointed by brother Salmond. His insights consistently hit me exactly how I want them to hit me.

I was thinking last night after I calmed down and my emotions caught up with my head. My experience with the fondue party with David and Mindie was the worst experience EVER. No one has disrespected me more. Ignoring what he felt like ignoring AND recognizing what he wanted to was EXTREMELY RUDE AND frustrating for me. I AM NEVER going to accept being in charge of another FHE with them AGAIN. I tried repeatedly to get help or some response but was left with NOTHING. It caused me to experience hate for the first time. I spent money AND time on something I AM NOT responsible for and near the end I began to resent ANYTHING I did for that. Hate is ugly. I am sooo glad I am past that and that I can seperate the actions from the man. It was NOT easy to get over that. That whole thing was traumatic for me. Right now I need to let David know to IGNORE EVERYTHING I've ever emailed him. I need to tell him this in person since-WE DON'T COMMUNICATE by email or text.

Last night I thought about how I texted David the Sunday before our fondue fhe when I made my last ditch attempt to involve my leaders by asking if they could take care of paper products-knives, spoons, forks, cups, napkins. David's response to my text-CRICKETS. Sooo it's alright for him to text me about an fhe last minute change? NOOO I'm not mad anymore-I can't lie I AM upset when I think about it BUT - WE DON'T COMMUNICATE BY TEXT OR EMAIL NOT I DON'T COMMUNICATE WITH HIM THAT WAY. WEEE DON'T. HE IS NOT GOING TO IGNORE MY TEXTS AND EXPECT ME TO ACKNOWLEDE HIS. IT DOESN'T WORK THAT WAY. THAT DOESN'T WORK FOR ME. I AM NOT DOING THIS OUT OF ANGER BUT IT IS THE WAY IT IS. IF DAVID NEEDS TO TELL ME ABOUT FHE HE CAN CALL ME DIRECTLY OR LEAVE ME A VOICE MAIL. Mindie texting me is not going to work either. If he chooses not to do this it is his choice BUT it happens this way or NOT AT ALL. I'm not angry now BUT it is the only way I can function normally with what has transpired. I'm not going to be angry if he chooses not to do this BUT it is THE ONLY WAY THIS IS GOING TO WORK FOR ME. This is something else I need to talk to him about because WE DON'T EMAIL OR TEXT EACH OTHER. ONE-WAY COMMUNICATION TO HIS BENEFIT DOES NOT EXIST BETWEEN US.

I am going to talk to him about this calmly. This is the only way I can REMAIN on good terms with him. I'm not trying to be a drama queen BUT this is the only way I can comply with his wishes AND retain my sanity AND NOT flirt with HATE. I'M NEVER GOING THERE AGAIN WITH HIM OR ANYONE!!!