Urban Poly Princess

I looove Sundays!!! My Samoan friend Sam from my old ward in South Jordan came to the church today. He was always a lot of fun. He's still a lot of fun. He used to make a bunch of Money working for some telephone or electrical company. He was able to pay off all of his undergraduate school loans. He was still working for the company when an accident the summer of 2011 caused him to have to amputate both of his hands. I haven't seen him since the accident but he looks great. He was just dating another girl from the ward I thought was married. So apparently she got divorced and was dating Sam. Sam was also divorced for several years when he joined our ward.

The divorced thing always held me back with Sam. It still does. Otherwise I'd be all about him. He is intelligent and hilarious but still manages to have a rock testimony. He is from West Valley and is Samoan/white. He looks like that English actor that plays Wolverine in X-men. He graduated from USU in broadcast journalism. That was my major at the U before I quit to go to library school.

We could launch a Poly News station together. I met the Tongan boy in my ward Sione Fiefia today. He wore a tupenu, taovala and sandals to church. In case you didn't guess, HE IS TONGAN. Hahaha... I need to be nice. Tongan men who try sooo hard to make their culture evident are usually lacking in something. He said he was raised in Hyrum. I'm not sure what it is exactly. It just seems like Poly men and women raised in the United States like to cling to their culture REALLY hard. Despite this many of them don't really know their culture. I love to tell them that I actually lived in Tonga because many of them haven't even visited. He said Ma'ata is his sister which probably means his cultural exposure is extremely limited. He did mention that he could read AND write in Tongan which is impressive if it's really true although I doubt it very much. I'm NOT interested in getting to know him better and he'll be just someone I know like Rudy.

I saw David in church. He did make an effort to say hello. I ignored him and I feel like crap about that but I didn't know what to do instead. I didn't fast about this like I should have. I just didn't think about him and I felt better because I wasn't thinking about him. Seeing him made me feel terrible. I don't want to talk to him. I just wanted those bad feelings to go away on their own and that didn't happen. I do have to pray about this AND get over it because I'm sitting here crying about nothing AND everything.

I don't like thinking about this BUT I know I need to think about it to get over it because ignoring it is sooo NOT working for me.

John's testimony REALLY put this into perspective. My challenge is that I have bad feelings towards David and I don't know how to be normal with him again.

John's sister-in-law could die and leave her husband without a wife and 5 kids without a mother. My challenge seems so stupid. I didn't hate David the last time I saw him at fhe. He didn't do anything offensive then. Why can't I laugh about him severing our LinkedIn connection? Why does that hurt so much? Maybe because that happened when we first met AND before I met Drama King David. He was great when I first met him. BEFORE I learned about how prickly and ridiculous he can be.

Just reading this makes ME feel like the drama queen. I can do this. I will be nice AND normal AND fake it until I make it!!! I wasn't going to go to fhe tomorrow BUT I AM going to attend, have a normal conversation with David AND be fine.