Urban Poly Princess

I get why I was sooo tired the first time. There's sooo much waiting. Sealings take looong while a lot of people just sit there waiting for their turn and then your turn takes looong too. By contrast live sealings are so short.

Bishop filled out my temple form which the stake president should be working on now. I'll give him this week then I'll start following up with him.

I saw Mindie at the temple. When I see her I want to get along with David because I feel like she and Katie conspire to make it so I'm NOT on good terms with him. BUT that shouldn't have anything to do with anything. It motivates me to get along with him when she makes me feel like that. She was happy I was angry on Monday. If only it were easier. I told her I called David when he told me he did let me know and I realized he did try to let me know. I feel like I'm being a difficult diva princess because of what I'm going to ask. I don't want to resent David or hate him or ANYONE again. I wish I were strong enough NOT to let this affect me BUT telling me not to email him AND then in the same breath talking to me about something I DID email him because it makes things easier for him is NOT alright. The more I think about this I need to tell him how this whole thing made me feel. Ignoring my text asking him to take care of paper products made me ANGRIER. If I don't say anything it's probable I will return to the hate.

When Mindie was telling me how she's used to cleaning horror houses like Jen's, I was thinking-I don't remember seeing you helping. She disappeared. I was the idiot that tried to tackle the kitchen like it was nothing. Instead it was a HORRIBLE LIVE NIGHTMARE and I STILL can't even clean the church now. It freaks me out.