Urban Poly Princess

I have so many blessings and there is so much I have to be grateful for.

I love this gospel and I love my testimony. I am grateful for the counsel of my leaders and I am grateful for the guidance of the spirit.

I read a story in the Standard Examiner about a lady who found out her husband has 5 years to live. They have 11 children and he contacted some rare liver disease when he was 19 that didn't manifest itself until recently. She returned to nursing school and commutes several days a week to Wyoming to work at a hospital she was able to secure a position at to support her family. I love inspirational stories that defy odds. Her advice, "Stop whining and cowboy up," she says, "Life is hard. Just pull yourself up from your bootstraps and make a plan, then work the plan and never give up."

I usually don't like tragic Lifetime movie-type medical stories BUT they do give me valuable perspective. I have nothing to complain about. I like her make a plan, then work the plan and never give up. I really do want to make 50,000 next year AND I intend to make and work a plan to get there. My salary will cover most of it BUT my Zumba business and whatever else I decide to do will do the rest.

Half of my Christmas tree lights are out. I have a prelit tree. I'm going to turn my house into Christmas tonight. I want to come home to Christmas after Thanksgiving. That and a spotless home!!! I was thinking of buying a new tree but my friend told me to just buy some lights. I'm going to try that this year and see how it works. I looove Christmas!!!

I emailed David how I feel right now. My reaction to our last fhe cancelation was too extreme. I can't get upset over nothing. I don't expect to hear from him again. I feel like I'm being demanding BUT after everything that's gone down between us it can't be any other way. I don't feel like I'm giving him much of a choice BUT I don't feel like I have one either. I'm NOT going to hate or resent him again and if he continues to treat me like a dog I will return there. He may not feel like he's doing that but it is how I feel. I got angry really fast when I thought he didn't let me know fhe was canceled. That is not a normal reaction. I don't want to become this short-tempered emotional idiot over NOTHING. Allowing him to treat me badly without saying anything is going to ignite the hate. Our dynamic has to either change or cease to exist. I do want to see the Nutcracker. I hope we can find some happy medium before then BUT I don't know what that is or even if it exists. I can always see it in SLC if I really want to do that. I just like the Cache Valley prices.