Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Freaking Out...

Posted by 2DI4 at 1:35 PM

SERIOUSLY!!! I have to be prepared for this to happen quickly as in a little over a month. It's imperative for me to maximize my health right now. FREAKY. Why the hell is this happening this way. Do I really deserve this? YES I will do what I need to do and I have been doing things to accommodate that BUT REALLY???!!! Humility, kindness, gentleness, meekness, love unfeigned. Whatever my father in heaven requires of me I am going to do because I know he knows best.

It didn't have to be this way. I'm doing what I think I should BUT if I do what I'm supposed to do now like I am and it doesn't happen, I'M DONE!!! I won't be denied blessings if I do my part and EVEN if it is RIDICULOUS. I'M REALLY SICK OF THIS AND IF IT JUST HAPPENED THE WAY IT WAS SUPPOSED TO IN THE BEGINNING THIS WOULD BE NORMAL. NOW IT'S STRANGE.

THIS SHOULD BE BEAUTIFUL. I NEED TO CALM THE HELL DOWN.

My mind has been all over the place. While this was theoretical for awhile, last night and this morning it got real.

I knew this and I felt this right before I moved so why all the internal turmoil all of a sudden? I am so blessed and I need to be grateful for the insight I receive all the time. I feel stupid to be caught up in my head of mental preparation. I need to be ready for this.

Mormon 1

2 And about the time that aAmmaron hid up the records unto the Lord, he came unto me, (I being about ten years of age, and I began to be blearned somewhat after the manner of the learning of my people) and Ammaron said unto me: I perceive that thou art acsober child, and art quick to observe;
 3 Therefore, when ye are about twenty and four years old I would that ye should remember the things that ye have observed concerning this people; and when ye are of that age go to the aland Antum, unto a hill which shall be called bShim; and there have I deposited unto the Lord all the sacred engravings concerning this people.
 19 And it came to pass that there were asorceries, and witchcrafts, and magics; and the power of the evil one was wrought upon all the face of the land, even unto the fulfilling of all the words of Abinadi, and also bSamuel the Lamanite.
How would it be to be given such instruction and responsibility as a 10-year-old. And I think the Lord is being demanding to me! I really don't think something can happen well if it happens that fast BUT I don't want to doubt the spirit and I AM doing that now.  
Your Holy Places - Ann M. Dibb
This means holy places can also include moments in time—moments when the Holy Ghost testifies to us, moments when we feel Heavenly Father’s love, or moments when we receive an answer to our prayers.
Another holy place in Joseph Smith’s life was his own bedroom. This may be hard to believe because, like many of you, he shared his bedroom with siblings. It became a holy place when he prayed with great faith, humility, and need. He explained, “After I had retired to my bed for the night, I betook myself to prayer and supplication to Almighty God for forgivenessof all my sins and follies.”4 The three years which had passed since Joseph had the vision in the Sacred Grove had not been easy. Seventeen-year-old Joseph had endured endless mockery, ridicule, and bullying. But that night in Joseph’s bedroom, the angel Moroni appeared in answer to his pleadings. Joseph received knowledge and comfort. That night, his bedroom became a holy place.
Perhaps without even realizing it, she has created her holy place away from the things of the world. I wonder how many times Ingrid has read her scriptures, felt the Spirit, and received answers to her prayers in her holy place.
When you return home tonight, I encourage you to record in your journal those places which you are recognizing and remembering. It is clear to me that thousands of you are standing in holy places. These places are providing you with protection, strength, and peace in unsettling times. Your testimonies are becoming stronger because you are standing for truth and righteousness in glorious ways.

 

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