Urban Poly Princess

I washed my comforter in my washer and dryed it in my dryer too. It is not as thick as most comforters so I was able to do that although now I want to try another one and see if I can fit it in there.

Mark asked me to eat with he and the sister missionaries again. Hmmm... I don't want him to think I'm interested in him BUT he hasn't asked me out so I didn't say no although perhaps having dinner with he and the sisters AGAIN may not be such a great idea. He is fine and tall and has a great testimony BUUUT he will probably live in Logan for the rest of his life. He also looks way too much like my nephew JR.  He is sweet and kind and will make some lucky lady a fantastic husband. I wish it could be me but I already know it can't and that I wouldn't be happy with him. I just like the way he treats me.

Carline wanted to know when we would get together again. I told her it's her turn to cook me dinner. YES I don't feel like cooking for people who are only interested in me cooking or having things at MY PLACE. She has a beautiful 3 bedroom home. It's very nice on the outside anyway. She keeps trying to get close to me and I don't want to be close to her. On the surface she is extremely sweet and spiritual. No, not just on the surface. She's ALWAYS sweet. She just freaked me out when we had dinner at Sara's house because she started telling me about some guy she's dating that bought her a car and laptop. He's not LDS AND has a girlfriend IN ADDITION to Carline. She is his on-the-side relationship. At the same time she attends the temple often. She believes completely that this guy is an answer to her prayer because he helped her have self-esteem because she didn't have any because of how she was raised.

I get that she had a difficult childhood. I've never had anyone try so freaking hard to be my friend. I can be social and outgoing when I want to be that way.

Nikki gave a good talk today in sacrament meeting. HOWEVER - This is the THIRD talk I've heard from her. I've also listened to Dennis and Sara talk in sacrament meeting twice.

It makes me wonder if I was blonde OR ugly if I would've been asked to speak at least ONCE since I've been in the damn ward for 3 years now. Of course I've been an FHE leader, blood drive coordinator and NOT RS secretary, ASSISTANT RS secretary!!! Pretty brown girls surely can't speak OR serve in any meaningful callings in Cache Valley. YES I'm jumping to conclusions BUT try being me and underestimated OR misinterpreted by IDIOTS ALL THE DAMN TIME!!!

My friend is the same way. He is more spiritual than probably ALL the men in my ward but he looks too young and is too pretty for ANY of the ugly old men in the stake to seriously consider for the leadership positions he should be filling now. He should be gaining all the experience he can right now. I know my bishop has the spirit, that doesn't mean I think he does EVERYTHING the way he should. Right now it doesn't really matter if I give a talk in church or not. It's not that big a deal. It also isn't that big a deal if I OR my friend hold more meaningful positions. People do perceive him as intelligent. They just don't think he's spiritual.

Eventually however it will matter very much and those who are in position to see that and make use of that WILL when it counts.

I need to make chicken enchiladas. I just ate saimin I cooked along with ALL my strawberries along with my leftover cool whip cream cheese and sugar mixture. ANYTHING tastes good with that stuff. My chocolate cake was divine with it.

I need to start cooking already. I should bake something too. Rolls sound good now. First things first. Chicken enchiladas coming up.