Urban Poly Princess

There is a new Tongan Admissions Counselor. His name is Afu but he goes by Fu. I met him at the Tongan Sunday School they hold periodically. He wanted to know why I stopped attending. I told him they were just a little too dramatic for me. He plays all sorts of sports and I remember seeing him singing for some Halau out of Hyrum. He looks like he's married with children but I've never seen him with any.

Ether 11
22 And they did reject all the words of the prophets, because of their secret society and wicked abominations.

23 And it came to pass that Coriantor begat Ether, and he died, having dwelt in captivity all his days.

Ether is just a mess of pride cycles, prophets testifying, warning the people when they are wicked. Life is good but this is fleeting. Corruption and everything is tenuous, nothing is secure.

These Things I Know - Boyd K. Packer
The consummate power of the priesthood has been given to protect the home and its inhabitants. The father has the authority and responsibility to teach his children and to bless and to provide for them the ordinances of the gospel and every other priesthood protection necessary. He is to demonstrate love and fidelity and honor to the mother so that their children can see that love.
I have come to know that faith is a real power, not just an expression of belief. There are few things more powerful than the faithful prayers of a righteous mother.
Teach yourself and teach your families about the gift of the Holy Ghost and the Atonement of Jesus Christ. You will do no greater eternal work than within the walls of your own home.

I've ALWAYS wanted someone who treats me like a queen. I would think that's what my father in heaven wants for me too. I trust in him and I have faith in him. I will do what I know I should do. Intellectually I get it but I don't feel it yet where I want to have that assurance. How long do I have to wait before the light comes? Am I going to have to marry someone I love very much but I'm not in love with? Will he ever treat me the way I need to be treated so I CAN fall in love with him?

I wish I never helped or attempted to help with FHE. I didn't think anyone could be that selfish, callous, cold or cruel. I want to think everyone can be that way and that it's not that bad BUT I really don't believe that. What is so great then? When do I get to see that?