Urban Poly Princess

How did this happen so quickly so drastically. I didn't work out yesterday. I did eat my last meal before 7pm. Ideally I'd like to eat my last small meal around 10pm. I feel great because I ate a huge variety of food BUUUT this also included Cheetos!!! I'm so glad I can eat those without affecting my blood sugar too much. Regular chips aren't that much either. I'm very happy I can still eat those with seemingly no effect.

My oreo sale finally came around. Tomorrow I can price-match at Walmart for Oreos AND Nutter Butter cookies. I'm buying a bunch but then I'm not eating them until My diabetes symptoms are reversed and then only sparingly like cookies should be eaten or any decadent dessert. I love the low-carb wraps I bought. I haven't restricted myself to not eat bread but there was no occasion to have any yesterday.

When I last emailed my friend I was pretty adamant about telling him I loved him very much but that I wasn't in love with him. That happens when I am dating someone and spending a lot of time with them. It doesn't happen quickly and it only happens after I've gotten to know them better and it NEVER happens when someone treats me badly. Kindness, respect and consideration is what does it for me OVER TIME.

My friend hasn't treated me well or been consistently exceptionally sweet or kind. I know him really well but I haven't spent enough time with him to warrant that. It doesn't make sense to me but I AM in love with him and I want to tell him that but it's either in person or not at all. I loved him a lot without being in love with him. I've always felt comfortable asking him for help too. I love Rich and my awesome home teacher Jeff but I am sooo NOOOT in love with either of them. I thought I knew exactly how that happened BUT I can't explain this.