Urban Poly Princess

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I know I tried yesterday to eat on a schedule. BUT like I already know my blood sugar isn't going to improve immediately or without stepping up my workouts and being consistent with those. It seems like it'll never drop below the 170s without that component. I read yesterday that having high blood sugar can result in a baby having birth defects during the first 8 weeks of pregnancy. Talk about motivation. My numbers WHILE taking Metformin are still high. I need to lose weight and be extremely consistent with working out.

The most harm you can do to a baby is at the beginning of a pregnancy. The mother's health has to be optimal. Insulin is the only thing proven NOT to hurt a baby when mothers are diabetic and they still need help controlling their blood sugar. Wow. I really have no choice BUT to lose weight AND workout consistently. I'm so glad I found out when I did and that I didn't get pregnant first with my high blood sugar. Especially when I first got diagnosed. My numbers were well over 300 consistently.

It's never been under 100 and an article I read about pregnancy and high blood sugar said levels should be at 70-130 before this Anyone with diabetes is considered a high risk pregnancy. I already am high risk because of my age. I have to monitor EVERYTHING like a hawk. The best thing to do according to everything I read is to lose weight AND lower my blood sugar BEFORE getting pregnant. Who knew I'd get this type of motivation. NOT ME. This is really sobering.

Pregnancy automatically makes your blood sugar rise. It's possible I could do everything I should and STILL have to take insulin when I'm pregnant because it is the only safe way to keep blood sugar at a normal level when I'm pregnant. I'm going to check it EVERY day during my pregnancy AND I'm going to find out whether I'm pregnant asap too so I can monitor this as closely and as carefully as possible.

When I prayed about whether I'd have my own kids naturally I was told I'd have 3 daughters naturally. I never thought it would require this much work BUT it is a blessing to know now and have this chance to improve my health now. I have 2 cousins who tried to get pregnant but this eluded them for 6 years. One of my cousins finally adopted a beautiful girl. The other has 4 kids now. I'm glad I was diagnosed. AGAIN, what a blessing to find out and to have something I can control.

2 Nephi 15
 25 Therefore, is the anger of the Lord kindled against his people, and he hath stretched forth his hand against them, and hath smitten them; and the hills did tremble, and their carcasses were torn in the midst of the streets. For all this his anger is not turned away, but his hand is stretched out still.
26 And he will lift up an ensign to the nations from far, and will hiss unto them from the end of the earth; and behold, they shallcome with speed swiftly; none shall be weary nor stumble among them.
27 None shall slumber nor sleep; neither shall the girdle of their loins be loosed, nor the latchet of their shoes be broken;

I like that first part of verse 27, None shall slumber nor sleep. While I looove my sleep this is referring to NOT being aware of how we live our lives. Diabetes may require me to gauge my physical health extremely carefully BUT this is a reminder that my spiritual health is just as if not more important to monitor ALWAYS. Nice analogy for a talk. Diabetes has to be monitored closely and my behavior like what I eat and how often and how much I exercise is extremely important. 

Prayer and scripture study can be likened to food, monitoring my blood sugar level is sort of like taking the sacrament and how we recommit to ALL not just our baptismal covenant. It is a time for reflection, to gauge our spiritual commitment and how we are improving each day and how we are becoming more like our Savior, what we are doing to bring this to pass and what we can and need to do to become more effective. Being a ward missionary is such a blessing because it isn't a calling with readily available results. When you are a teacher your focus is on how to make your students feel the spirit best. As a relief society president while the spirit is extremely important, there is so much to do that is already laid out. Visiting teaching, enrichment AND every Sunday program has to be planned for.

With missionary work I have to help new converts feel comfortable and welcome in the church BUUUT I also have to actively look for and rely on the spirit very much to find new people who are ready to embrace the gospel. I want to be at our activities, I have to be worthy of the spirit to know how to best influence any person I come into contact with. They have to be able to feel like they know the Savior because they know me. I know what that requires and I am grateful for that blessing. It means living as worthily as possible by praying intently often AND studying regularly from more than just the basics or scriptures and conference talks. It is going beyond that.

Although Mark really disappointed me initially with his unwillingness to talk to his friends about hearing the missionary discussions, how he talked to Justin yesterday was awesome. He bore his testimony to him about how he'd feel in the temple because he just received his recommend that allows him to do baptisms for the dead. Justin is gorgeous and I'm happy to be his friend BUT I have hoped for a long time that ANY guy would  just talk to him normally in our ward. It is important for BOTH men AND women to fellowship him. Gorgeous men will ALWAYS have a supply of women ready to fellowship them but their motives are always suspect especially in a singles ward like mine.

Krista wants Anthony to be worthy too. We were planning a temple trip yesterday until we thought about how it'll be closed for 3 weeks. Anthony said yesterday that he was incarcerated last year. I was dumbfounded. I know Krista is an amazing influence on him. He just better be worth it. She's still a very new member. She makes Anthony sit with me during sacrament meeting and she attends gospel essentials with him because I do BUT her knowledge of the gospel is still very small.

Yesterday I was answering a question about how we all followed the Savior or we wouldn't be here on the earth. She was surprised and asked me Really? Is that true? Sometimes I assume everyone just knows everything I do BUT I was raised in the church. I attended a church junior high school AND high school in Tonga before finishing at Kahuku which might as well have been an LDS high school with the huge LDS population in Hawaii naturally near the temple, BYU-Hawaii and the Polyesian Cultural Center. AGAIN, I've just been extremely blessed my entire life.

True Sheperds - Thomas S. Monson
President David O. McKay admonished: “Home teaching is one of our most urgent and most rewarding opportunities to nurture and inspire, to counsel and direct our Father’s children. … [It] is a divine service, a divine call. It is our duty as Home Teachers to carry the … spirit into every home and heart. To love the work and do our best will bring unbounded peace, joy and satisfaction to [a noble,] dedicated [teacher] of God’s children.”⁴
There are times when a little extra prodding may be needed, as well, to help your home teaching companion find the time to go with you, but if you are persistent, you will succeed.

I always tried to give Josh the opportunity to act as my home teacher but he was always a little strange and I never felt comfortable asking him for help although I did just to give him the chance to do it BUT I was never fully comfortable with him. He did serve me a lot BUT I always felt like it was an imposition. ALWAYS. I know if Jeff wasn't his partner, I'd never see him. Jeff has been amazing as has Rich. They have been the kind of home teachers EVERYONE needs. I hope I get another good home teacher since Jeff will be in the North ward.