Urban Poly Princess

17 And now Limhi was desirous that his father should not be destroyed; nevertheless, Limhi was not ignorant of the iniquities of his father, he himself being a just man.

 18 And it came to pass that Gideon sent men into the wilderness secretly, to search for the king and those that were with him. And it came to pass that they met the people in the wilderness, all save the king and his priests.

 19 Now they had sworn in their hearts that they would return to the land of Nephi, and if their wives and their children were slain, and also those that had tarried with them, that they would seek revenge, and also perish with them.

I went to bed at 2am but my body still got up at 7am. Weird. Verse 17 reminds me that even wicked men and women are still multifaceted and STILL someone's parent or someone's child, brother or sister. People I love that make bad choices I hope are shown the utmost mercy. I can rest assured that this will be brought to pass. Everything changes when you know someone personally who has made unwise decisions. When you see and know the good in someone it is difficult to condemn them no matter what they've done. I am grateful I don't have to judge anyone in the end. It is a comfort to know that all will be judged by the wisest and most loving Supreme being. As much as I want good for someone, I can't want it as much as my Savior or Father in Heaven who are capable of loving perfectly. I am so grateful that all ultimately will be as it should be.

Last night I thought about Adam and how I wanted to be his friend almost immediately. It was like that with Rich and Colton too. ALL of them like to look good and dress well. All of them try to maximize their earning potential and attract success. Rich and Colton are extremely confident. Adam probably is too, I just don't know him very well. 

He intrigued me however because his type usually stays clear of me UNLESS they meet me on a rare grocery store run without make up on or wearing an ugly t-shirt and sweats OR a hoodie. So I took steps to get to know him better. . . When I first looked through his music in his car I wondered why I bothered at all. He was definitely pretty BUT I like nice packaging too. AND common interests helps a whole lot too. We didn't seem to have any. Driving a Lexus helped a little as did how intelligent he is BUUUT he lacks a lot of social grace just because he hasn't needed to attract women who care about that stuff. The ONLY girl he's ever shown any attention to that I consider pretty is that one friend of his I met from the East Coast. I like his pin-stripped suit, his soccer shirts and his casual polo shirts. He has some beautiful ties too ALTHOUGH he often wears this maroon/yellow/blue?striped/printed monstrosity that makes me wish I could exterminate it with a glance like superman.

Perhaps I care too much about things that don't matter a whole lot, BUT I think EVERYTHING matters. 

Spiritually however David is off the chain. I love how inexperienced physically I pray he still is. BUT that has more to do with dumb luck and years of shyness than anything else, BUT I still like it. He wishes he had make-out sessions with the world. I am sad he thinks that way but it is a reflection of the time and standards we live with even in the church. I am sad that he or ANY guy or girl considers this is a flaw rather than the rare asset it is. His commitment to the gospel of Jesus Christ is what makes him amazing. He can learn all the other stuff. I do enjoy his company and I do have fun with him although it isn't the freaky natural thing it is with Rich. He is not someone I would ever seek out initially. Someone's testimony is not obvious even if it is borne in sacrament meeting. 

Colton became my friend so fast because we have very similar personalities. Adam reminds me of Colton and I think we'll become better friends BUT time will tell. I'm glad he's my colleague that I don't have to worry about having any uncomfortable future conversations with because he has a husband. The church is not an issue because I'm never going to date him. I'm NEVER going to develop my friendships with anyone else in my Real Estate class except Deb who I already love. I do like Erika and Mary although I'm not going to hang out with either of them. 

Getting to know David better should've expanded my vision of other white boys but it hasn't. Myrick is who I'd go out of my way to get to know better because he is hot, if I wasn't scared of him. He has a son however which as old as I am, I am still not interested in dating anyone with children. I keep seeing him lately with this very pretty blonde lady however who also has several kids. They look both look like models. 

Rich is also someone I went out of my way to meet initially. Ryan was spiritually and intellectually on point BUT he is physically NOT attractive to me at all and if he ever asked me out I would say no. I did everything to avoid that happening. NOT that he ever wanted to ask me out. It's just something I sensed and took pains to avoid because I really like and admire him as a person even if I would never date him. His fiance is tall like him and has the same body-type and coloring. She is also intelligent and spiritual. They  make a great couple. 

Small and Simple Things - Arnulfo Valenzuela