Urban Poly Princess

Yesterday was a humbling day for me BUT I am so grateful for the gospel. I am grateful I can improve and repent and try again. Thanks to the atonement and a loving father in heaven I don't need to be stagnant. I can improve myself and find joy. I usually don't appreciate all the marriage and dating advice singles wards are fraught with, BUT I needed what bishop and his wife shared last night.

I know what is important. If I don't discard my pride NOW I can lose everything that means anything to me. There are no accidents in life. I KNOW my father in heaven loves me very much. He is patient with me when I am not and when I don't deserve insight I still receive it. I trust in his wisdom. Intentionally ignoring the spirit has been the stupidest thing I've ever done AND I know better than that. People beg to know their father's will and I've never had to struggle with that. I always tell myself if I just knew what my father in heaven wanted from me I'd do it without hesitation BUT then here I am a perfect example of what NOT to do, of what NEVER to do.

Despite that I feel good because I have made the decision in my head and heart to do what I need to do come what may because what really makes the difference is showing my father in heaven that I will do whatever he wants in any circumstance EVEN if it is difficult. Actually if it wasn't it wouldn't mean anything. And really, it isn't that difficult.