Urban Poly Princess

I reread what I wrote about the insight I had into David's character when I tried to work with he and Mindie for FHE. What a colossal nightmare that was BUUUT when he was in Hawaii I thought most about how much I missed my friend-NOT what I dislike. It's not like I spend any time with him but I couldn't wait for him to return. I feel like he knows me better than he should. I had determined in my head before he came back that I would work to repair our friendship BUT then memories of what happened came back and I didn't want to work on it at all or I'd "try" but something ALWAYS held part of me back. I emailed him exactly how I felt so it's not like I want to hold on to that. I am going to be over this with this entry. He means a lot to me and I know I need to make things good between us.

His good qualities far outweigh the bad and there should be NOTHING I can't get over provided his testimony and other consistent correct choices are there. I get that I need to let this go.

Last night someone who helped me when my battery was dead was being extra friendly. I am so NOOOT interested. It's what Jared made me feel. I think men, especially in my ward should want to help BUT should NOT expect anything in return. When David helped me with my tire I know he didn't expect anything. He didn't make me feel like I owed him anything. That is how it should be. My home teachers are good that way too. Devin and Glade don't make me feel weird. Just Jared and this latest one. It's my sixth sense that has kept me single thus far. I waited this long to get married. I'm not about to hook up with just anyone.