Urban Poly Princess

Wow, just WOW!!! I used to looove skating. There was a time when you couldn't get me off my roller skates. My mother used to get sooo angry with me for wearing them in the house all the time. There was a time before moving to Tonga when I wanted to be a professional skater. I REALLY didn't know what that meant BUT that's how much I loved it. I feel like I did when I was first recovering from my brain injury. In my head I could type 60wpm but when I tried it was like a child trying to type for the first time.

Sooo frustrating and ANNOYING as L. I was looking forward to this. Racing, spins, jumps yeah NONE of that. I could barely stand on the stupid things. I can run in my stilettos again!!! I've danced Poly solo performances even AFTER the brain injury BUT that was crap tonight. If Heidi hadn't skated around with me I would've gone nowhere AND I fell, nothing major. Something I loved became something I SUCK at. I didn't go ice-skating a lot but when I did it was similar enough to roller skating that I could do just about anything on the ice that I could with roller blades. When I was at the Y it was fun to go skating at Provo lake and then at the Triad in Salt Lake City. The Gallivan Center is the skating place downtown now. I never went there. That is for sure changing NOW. It's supposed to be like riding a bike.

I AM BUYING ROLLER BLADES ASAP AND USING THEM EVERY DAY THIS SUMMER. THEY ARE GOOD EXERCISE TOO. I wonder how good the Riverwalk trail is for skates. Anything else I did before my brain injury was awkward initially but came back pretty quick. In my head I can still do all those things but when I actually got out there it was a disaster. People kept telling me how brave I was to do that YEAH NOT so much. Even when I lived in Tonga we would skate all over the church high school campus where we lived in faculty housing. At one point we tried to skate AND play double dutch rope. THAT was never successful BUT it was fun. I never liked most sports BUT I loved skating, dancing and dodgeball. Tongan hopscotch was a lot of fun too. Marbles. I used to be good at that I NEVER loooved it however. I did love to skate. Double dutch jump rope is a lot of fun too.

I am thinking I can do everything I could before my accident. Yeah it just took this to realize I'M NOWHERE NEAR WHERE I SHOULD BE. I cannot believe how that went. I have never felt so frustrated before. Now that school's all done I can perfect myself in ALL of these areas. I need to study my music and piano, singing, Zumba AND NOW ROLLERBLADING. One of the students-the DJ actually used to be sponsored by Monster for extreme skating. He does all these wild tricks at the skate park. Yeah I never did those kind of tricks before. Maybe he can teach me some mild stuff. First I want my balance back. How the L am I rocking my shoes when I can't balance well???!!!

I should be grateful I went to FHE. If I didn't learn how crappy I was right now I wouldn't want to do anything. Talk about humbling.

I will NEVER feel like that AGAIN. Sucking at bowling I don't care BUT to suck at skating is NOT ACCEPTABLE!!! Time to look at Amazon and price skates. Time to do some research.