My Random Blogging Therapy
10 And we did observe to keep the judgments, and the astatutes, and the commandments of the Lord in all things, according to theblaw of Moses.
22 And thus saith the Lord God: I will cause that they shall bealoathsome unto thy people, save they shall repent of their iniquities.
27 And it came to pass that we lived after the manner ofahappiness.
I should of read this B4 I texted Andrew. I need to remember he's less active. Because he's Poly he's going to expect there to be this instant connection AND there is BUUUT he needs to also realize his limitations. I'm not 18 and don't treat me like I am!!! He knows I'm in the Midsingles ward so he should have some idea of how he should treat ALL women over 31. Get a clue.
I really hope I can help him realize how he needs to fully embrace the gospel in his life and the joy that is contained therein. It doesn't matter how sucky my life might feel at times, with the gospel ALL that matters is that I am striving to become the person I am capable of becoming all the time. That's not going to change when I get married. I know A LOT of things will change BUUUT for the stupid people who think once they get married they'll start being clean or more valiant in the gospel they are stupid. Today is just as much a part of eternity as the day I'm sealed to my eternal companion.
This moment right now is a part of eternity. Why would I want a life that is anything less than exemplary?
I can't wait to have my family BUUUT I also love and appreciate my family right now. I am grateful to have an amazing weekend coming up. I just warned George that I invited Saia and his family to come to Ochi's baptism Saturday. I'm excited to see them. Friday my old classmates are having dinner with my classmate Vagi who will be in town. I'm excited to see her. It'll be in Utah Valley. I'd complain about sucky Utah Valley right now but then I am living in the even suckier Cache Valley.
Saturday is Ochi's baptism that'll be even cooler since Saia and his family will be there and I've never met my niece and nephew Sala or Saia Jr. - Saia Jr. is a talented singer and dancer. I know Saia's wife is probably not loving life yet, BUUUT she will given some time. It makes me really want to work the real estate thing. I would looove to do business with my brother and cousin flipping homes that'll provide them ALL with the money they need to have amazing lives they can spend with their families. Yeah NOT my responsibility BUT still something I'd enjoy. I would love to move to DC or California following my Dairyland stint BUT I also don't want to be away from my family.
It might be better for me to find my husband if I'm away from them BUUUT I looove my family too. I want to attend my nieces and nephews events like their baptisms, blessings, graduations and even weddings later on. I want my own wedding more BUUUT I can only do so much. My father in heaven is pleased with me and I am confident about that. Although I often wonder when I see someone like Robert Draper who is solid gospel-wise, why I can't bring myself to have a relationship with someone like him. Spiritually he is on point BUUUT physically and intellectually he is NOOOT there and that is extremely important to me despite the knowledge I have that he will be an incredible father and husband. Why isn't that enough for me? Part of me feels bad about that but then I also don't doubt my father-in-heaven wouldn't want me to force myself to feel something I don't or ignore things I can't get over.
As I continue to live my life in accordance with his plan, I am confident all will be as he intended. No blessing will be denied me and I will have the amazing life I know I deserve.
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