Urban Poly Princess

I met with Holly Bernsten my new visiting teacher last night. She has 2 brothers in the ward. The Jones, Slaters and Bernstens all have 3 people in the ward - 3 Midsingles in one family is not something to strive for. She is sweet. Her partner is in the North ward and was given a new VT assignment so Holly will have a new partner and I will have a new teacher eventually. It was nice to get to know her. She is a tall cute girl who grew up in the area like the Jones and the Slaters. I'm happy Devin is engaged.

I was trying to figure out why I know Spencer and I finally got it. I met him a long time ago and he was just working as a lobbyist in DC. I like that very much HOWEVER he is a pompous idiot NOT grounded in doctrine who tries to assert that he is BUT he revealed his lack Sunday. Ryan and Robert Hansen have their doctrine down. Spencer kept spouting historical facts about the priesthood which was good but his insistence on teaching FALSE doctrine however undermines everything. He was so confident so I actually looked his questionable statement up. Only Ryan however among the "gospel scholars" was active in the ward and attended activities showing his desire to serve in the ward like he should. Robert Draper is like that too. Holly was telling me last night how she thinks Robert is cute and how she asked him out a few times but she could never tell if he was interested or not.

I'm sitting there thinking wow! She is a cute girl who likes the way Robert looks AND she asked him out. Robert deserves that. She works at Walmart where she has been for several years. She is semi-active and I'm glad she came to visit me. She gets distracted easily. It was nice to learn so much about her. She told me a little about how she was raised and from what I gathered although she and her brothers attended church regularly growing up her dad was never active. That's probably why one of her brothers at least never served a mission. She did A LOT of talking and it was nice to get to know my visiting teacher so well. When she was done it was around 8:30 so she was there 2 hours and I completely forgot about our RS activity I should have taken her to attend with me. She said we should hang out... Uh NOOO!!! She is not annoying BUUUT I ALWAYS have people who want to hang out with me. While I enjoyed talking to her and getting to know her better and I'm sure I could do stuff with her here and there, she isn't intellectually stimulating and it would take an effort for me to chill with her.

We have nothing in common. I do like her and I think I could have fun with her up to a point. She reminds me of Jonni who I think is great. Although I enjoy her company I'm not going to hang out with her. One thing I do like about Holly is if she is interested in some guy she will talk to them and try to get to know them better. She isn't shy.

My mission is such a significant part of my life and responsible for so much of my spiritual maturity and commitment. They always said it sets the pattern for the rest of your life. It has definitely done that for me. My mom told me my niece sent her papers in. NOTHING could make me happier right now. I looove her so much. I wish her older sister would get the same desire to serve her Heavenly Father. NOTHING can prepare her or enrich her life more than a mission.

I don't think I could ever marry anyone who didn't serve a mission although president Hunter never did. As a prophet of God who would be better or more worthy? My friend is spiritually THE BEST I've met although his doctrinal base isn't as strong as Ryan's or Robert Hansen's. He actively LIVES the gospel the best and seeks to improve himself spiritually. That is more important. He APPLIES the gospel. He doesn't have a problem bearing his testimony. I think he is capable of being a better speaker and teacher however.

His talks and lessons were alright but not filled with the spirit all the time the way they could've been. He is extremely intelligent and not plagued with the awkward stuff Ryan or Robert have to confront. I've never seen him shine or own his light. I don't think he actively works to bring the spirit with him each time he speaks. No one really does in my ward. Jodie Madsen gave an amazing RS lesson once. She actively sought and used the spirit in her lesson. We have sooo many RMs in my ward. Why don't they use that more? Didn't they learn how to do that on their missions?

My friend doesn't use his testimony the way he can. His testimony is there or he wouldn't live his life the way he does BUUUT the spirit was not with him as powerfully as it could have been. When we had a Chinese New Year party his lesson was excellent. The spirit was there. It was on point. I didn't get that from him again. I don't know what happened. In general I felt it more in his FHE lessons than in his Sunday School lessons. He has an incredible testimony. That is what makes him exceptional. He needs to use it more. He can touch lives that way. He does take the opportunity to share his testimony on fast Sundays which is nice.

I like that he does things on his own to develop his own spiritual growth like being a veil worker in the temple. I don't like that he didn't serve his mission until he was 25 but I am glad he went. Someone's CURRENT spiritual state is what matters NOT their history although I do like the history too. I don't know if he could be an effective mission president or if he loves missionary work. Untapped potential. I wonder if that's a remainder from his shy phase. I want to see him shed that. He needs to own his ability to glory in the goodness of our father in heaven, and in his son. I don't know exactly how his testimony of the Savior developed but I know from what he has told me that it is significant. I get that it is sacred but there are still ways to draw on something so powerful and make that shine through. It is what can move people to action best.

I think my friend might still live in Layton. I wonder if he just enjoyed his ward and people there so much that  he didn't want to leave. That is pretty costly however to drive that much if he does live there still. That completely doesn't make sense to me. I know he loves his father in heaven so I know he is doing whatever he thinks he is being led to do. I hope he's happy and this is the second day I've spent too much time thinking about someone I have no idea about right now. This is not productive or helping me at all.

Moroni 10
31 And ^aawake, and arise from the dust, O Jerusalem; yea, and put on thy beautiful garments, O daughter of ^bZion; and^cstrengthen thy ^dstakes and enlarge thy borders forever, that thou mayest ^eno more be confounded, that the covenants of the Eternal Father which he hath made unto thee, O house of Israel, may be fulfilled.