Urban Poly Princess

The Cache-Riche Realtor's Association called me to tell me I need to deactivate my license until I can pay all those damn fees of close to $700 or Andrea will be placed in violation. I went ahead and did that. I'm not activating until financially I'm set this summer. It feels like this is just part of the never-ending hell I live in. I am trying to get with my real estate thing. It just seems like it takes so much time and even more money to even begin.

I think I'm making something out of nothing and I just really need to chill out. I knew this was on the horizon. It's not a surprise. Why am I so angry? I need that natural Yoli sleep enhancement pill DREAM. I told Heidi to take my name off her group dating list. I couldn't wait for our ward to FINALLY split. Porter just made me want that even sooner when he was stupid enough to tell me he learned I was on that stupid list. When I told him I didn't want to be on that list he went on to say it was alright if I didn't want to get married. Sooo... I'm not going to get married UNLESS I put myself on Heidi's group-dating list? How about I DON'T have fun dancing to ANY country music and I'm not going to go out with ANYONE I don't want to go out with. Many people think it's just a date. My time is valuable and I will spend it with who I want to spend it with. I want to see some new faces and meet some new people because what I've had to choose from isn't working for me AT ALL.

I think I'm just fine and I don't know what was with that stuff last night that made it so I couldn't sleep again. There is no evidence for any of that and I'm sure there is nothing for me to get excited about. Life is fabulous and it will continue to get better because I am actively working every day to ensure that. While I wish I could work the real estate market now, I'm going to do it wisely and well this summer. My father in heaven will continue to bless me as much as he has already. There are a lot of people in the North ward I wanted to avoid. This is what I've been waiting for!!! No one can weaken my resolve and if I just worry about pleasing my father in heaven, everything ultimately will be fine in the end.

I'm excited to plan Krista's shower and what to serve for Alan's discussion Wednesday. I REALLY hope Jon isn't called as Logan 1st's new ward mission leader. If he could lose the starry-eyes for me it would be fine BUUUT I know that look AND as a result I never have and never will encourage him. His doctrine knowledge is weak. I haaate that. His lesson sucked big time when he gave it. If Rich is called however that will be SWEET!!! I'm going to miss him when he gets married. It is rare to meet someone I can connect with at just about EVERY level. I hope he is very happy as he forms a new life with Pandi. I don't know her but I have no desire to get to know her better at all. I don't think she's good enough for Rich but I will never think anyone's good enough for him. I like my relationship with Rich. There is nothing between us BUUUT I always enjoy his company. I never feel bad after spending time with him.

Andrew is fun too although he is spiritually a contradiction who I am NEVER going to be more than friends with. He reminds me of how fun it is to hang out with Poly boys. They are typically multi-talented players BUT he knows better than to even try to play with me. Despite any faults they might have, if Poly boys are intelligent they are ALSO hilarious, talented and confident. Andrew has a great body too. He has the height and broad chest, what I like physically. I went out of my way to meet him first because he has the Poly swag presence and he looked good. Up close however he is not that attractive. He's not ugly, just not what he could be. If he'd chop that hair he'd look great. What I like most about Rich is that his intelligence is EXACTLY what I want it to be AND he still manages to be funny, fine and know how to dress. Andrew dresses badly.