Urban Poly Princess

I went to the temple last night because I wanted to FINALLY see the new film BUUUT they played the old new one. Kendra was in my session however and I was able to set up a time to visit her tonight. There was definitely a reason for me to attend!!! PLUS... I am annoyed with my ward mission leader because I get this feeling he's interested in me and I'm NOT interested in him AT ALL. He wants us all to attend ward temple night next week. I don't want to go just because I don't want to see him there OR Jon for that matter.

There are 7 women and Porter and Jon. SERIOUSLY!!! Rich is a ward missionary too but I don't think he considers it important enough for him to do much more than teach his lesson when its his turn to teach. I told Porter SEVERAL times to get some guys to be ward missionaries and that it felt like relief society with Porter and Jon. Rich is beautiful BUUUT he's the only one and he's NOOOT active.

I'm glad Krista and Anthony are speaking at the Chinese ward Sunday so I can miss most of our meeting. Porter has dated two of my friends Erin and Jen. Helene had a thing for him too. All of the women are waaay too good for him in my opinion. The most impressive thing to me about Porter are the nice women that dated him.

He's already showed me his controlling side. I think everyone has an ugly side. I think it's important to figure this out and find someone who is actively working on improving their life ALL the time. Our amazing plan of salvation is such a gift and allows for eternal progression. It is vital in my opinion to learn weaknesses and then decide if their good qualities outweigh this and if you are willing to deal with that. I'm NOT.

I was happy to get my period last night because I didn't get it last month so I freaked out and found out 51 is the average age for menopause. Sooo... I can stop tripping!!! Where was this months ago when I was freaking out big time. I haaave to get my blood sugar under control AND lose weight to have healthy pregnancies. I still need a couple more months of eating well. I am fitting my clothes a lot better although I don't think I've lost a significant amount of weight. I am fine eating like this forever.

The Yoli founder's smile is amazing. I think he whitens his teeth. After my aligners are done at the beginning of April I'm going to follow suit. Real Estate has been on the back burner since I have the fees to pay and my diabetes threw me for a loop BUUUT I FINALLY feel like I am actively working to change that. I think I will become a Yoli disciple. I am looking better and by the time my fees are paid I will be completely sales ready.

What you look like is such a huge part of sales and I'm excited about that. The Younique thing is fun however I'm not going to work extremely hard for something that has such a tiny profit. I looove the mineral eyeshadow. This is the third day I'm wearing it. I wish I had my 3-D mascara now.

Helaman 13
28. O ye wicked and ye perverse generation; ye hardened and ye stiffnecked people, how long will ye suppose that the Lord will suffer you? Yea, how long will ye suffer yourselves to be led by foolish and blind guides? Yea, how long will ye choose darkness rather than light?

39. O ye people of the land, that ye would hear my words! And I pray that the anger of the Lord be turned away from you, and that ye would repent and be saved.

I love Samuel the Lamanite!!! He was strong and courageous to go among the Nephites and call them to repentance AND be a sitting or rather standing duck at the top of a wall.

Do We Know What We Have - Carole M. Stephens 
Quoted Wilford Woodruff
"Every man or woman that has ever entered the church of God and been baptized for the remission of sins has a right to revelation, a right to the Spirit of God, to assist them in their labors, in their administrations to their children, in counseling their children and those over whom they are called upon to preside. The Holy Ghost is not restricted to men, nor to apostles or prophets; it belongs to every faithful man and woman, and to every child who is old enough to receive the gospel of Christ."
M. Russell Ballard, "When men and women go to the temple, they are both endowed with the same power, which by definition is priesthood power. ...The endowment is literally a gift of power."

The reason why I wanted to work in the temple was because of  Bro. Salmond's Pearl of Great Price Class. He kept making comparisons about clothing, being clothed, covering and being covered and what these things symbolized. Baptism and the sacrament are hugely symbolic but because I've experienced them all my life the significance is sometimes lost with my familiarity. The baptizer and baptizee are clothed in white too.

Purity, an absence of sin, clothed with righteousness, donning the armor of God. The endowment ceremony and how it differs from the accounts in Genesis AND the Pearl of Great Price. What things are repeated, highlighted. This is all stuff to be considered and considered often. Even our feet are shod. What are all the implications? What should I be pondering when I'm there? I don't want the ceremonies to become so commonplace to me that I lose how significant and amazing it all is or stop wondering about what it all is trying to teach me and how I can benefit from these things now AND in the future.

The sealing ordinance is required before I receive the Holy Spirit of Promise. What will that entail? What does it entail? What access does that then give me? The highest blessings in the temple and in life in general can only be reached with a spouse. Who do I want to spend eternity with and who is worthy to spend it with me?

Even without all his experience AND formal education I would still choose Justin over ANYONE in my ward. No, actually if I wasn't specifically told not to do that I'd choose Rich. Even with his flaws and baggage I'd choose him over everyone else. Stephen Haderlie is amazing. He has everything that is important BUUUT I still wouldn't choose him. Justin is gorgeous and it is sad that is important to me OR not. I feel alright about how I feel. Heavenly father would never want me to force myself to be with someone unless I wanted that.

Church doctrine often speaks about the "intelligences" - this is our essence and it is no accident that this is so important to me. I always want someone brilliant. I have no problem with that. I think I'm finally getting that it's alright for me to love the way someone looks too!