Urban Poly Princess

I don't want to assume the worst BUT I am still livid. Would this asinine dean have assumed I COULDN'T WRITE THIS IF MY NAME WAS MARY SMITH???!!! I don't know how long it's going to take me to get over this. I can't wait to see what's actually going to happen. I went to school to check my email because I wanted to read her latest response. I don't want to think the worst of people but then something like this happens and I feel jaded and ticked off at the world. This is when I get too sensitive and think about things that have nothing to do with anything. Why did she treat me like this? She doesn't know me at all. I don't want this anger and bitterness bottled up inside. I need to let it go BUT continue to work to resolve this. What makes someone act like this.

This is like when the stupid security officer at Smith's in Midvale accused me of opening a bottle of foundation. He acted like he was doing me a favor when he insisted I "tell the truth"-why are people like this. If people are going to accuse someone of doing something wrong AT LEAST have evidence OR at least see the person doing it.

Apparently I haven't learned whatever I'm supposed to learn because I thought I had this lesson. What was I supposed to learn. I know that I'm not supposed to let myself become more jaded and I'm not supposed to take offense so it makes me so I can't be Christlike and loving. I read this story about a convert with 2 sleeve tattoos that moved to Utah at the prompting of the spirit. People constantly assume things about her and treat her unkindly. Instead of becoming bitter and angry she makes a conscious choice to be loving and kind despite how people treat her.

She is an example of the better way. I want to be like her and NOT dwell on the imperfections of others. I frequently make mistakes myself. I need to move on BUT I still need to do EVERYTHING to get this resolved appropriately. Delicate balance. It makes me mad but nothing is accomplished that way.

I am specifically going to pray for help to resolve this as my father in heaven would have me handle it. I'm so happy conference is tomorrow. I was upset about having to miss fhe next week but it is going to be held at the rec center near Logan high school. I wouldn't have gone anyway.