Urban Poly Princess

I feel sooo drained. I probably should've stayed home but my friend's leaving soon so I want to see him as much as I can before he leaves for 3 months. I actually like dodge ball but yeah right I don't feel like standing up let alone running. I laid down and shivered not wanting to have to turn on my heater BUUUT I finally gave up and turned it on, made some potato soup and toast.

I feel bad. No energy is NOT a good thing on me. I get quiet and as fun as the dead log I feel like. I'm glad I learned that card game. We played face cards a lot. The church has opposed that. My cousins in Tonga all played with face cards and my parents never enforced it, not that it's a good thing. We'd play them at ward camp too. Those were very lively games.

People would cheat and we would catch players hiding cards. We played A LOT of gin rummy. My brother and I would play for cookies. Pretty stupid because we got it from the kitchen. We had fun though. These cards were very different. I don't remember the name of the game we learned to play. My friend was nice to teach us to play. He was VERY patient with me. The game was pretty simple and short. The deck is small too. Despite this my brain power was NOT functioning very well. I wanted to mix it up so I asked to learn the other version BUT I should've actually been home. In one way I'm glad I went because I did spend some time with my friend BUT I was NOT a fun person to be around.

I was tired and ornery. Poor Jen she bore the brunt of that. She started to talk to me when the fhe lesson began. I had to physically move away from her and I told her NOT to ask me about the picture. I know I would've blown up at her and I don't want to do that. She asked me to move over later when we were playing cards and there was no way in hell I was going to have her sit next to me so I ignored her. She's like Camila who used to be in our ward. She is awkward and people don't treat her very well. I know that and I certainly don't need to be someone else or add to that. She is kind-hearted and I can't use the hormonal excuse once it's started. BUT tired AND dealing with feeling crappy because that's always a stellar time for women!!! I just was NOT in the mood for her. Sometimes I think it's better if I don't engage until I'm where I need to be.