Urban Poly Princess

I went to bed at 10pm... EARLY for me. I am glad that physically I feel great and that yucky period is OVER!!! I was stressing out yesterday about how many kids I can have now that I am NOT married. I looked up stuff online and I found a show on Dr. Oz. Your chances to have children significantly decrease the longer you wait BUT there were so many exceptions to this that it didn't seem all that rare. My sister-in-law is two years older than me and her 9th beautiful boy was born when she was 43. I think only the first 3 were born when she was under 30. I felt A LOT better although EVERY time I get my period it freaks me out a little thinking when I get married I won't be able to have any kids.

Last night when I was half asleep I KNEW I'd have 3 girls. WEIRD. I didn't ask although I was thinking about it a lot yesterday. I get A LOT of revelation that way. I didn't ask because I felt it was selfish. My cousin Tilila has been married over 9 years and finally adopted a beautiful little girl. My other cousin Lehua didn't conceive for 6 years but then she had 4 kids. ALSO I have the gospel in my life and I know whatever's meant to happen will happen. BUT I still want my own children. I don't know why I feel like I'm not going to have any boys. It's nice I was told that because it's not something I'd ask right now. I've known for awhile now who I'm going to marry too. I didn't ask that either I was just told.

Before my dad died he saw each of George's kids before they were born. Forget ultrasound. He told them what they would have each time AND what they would look like. That is the one thing I don't like. None of my kids will know their grandfather and he was the absolute best grandfather EVER. I remember when Noe was born and George told me my dad was there to see her EVERY day. He loved her so much. I love her so much too. I enjoyed stealing her for drives and just to go cruising with her in Hawaii. It was fun to steal her with my dad and take her all over the island. I remember we took her to a fair once in Honolulu. She was scared of so many of the rides. Her sister by contrast wasn't scared of anything. I can't believe Noe is 6 feet tall. She towers over her dad and would've towered over her grandfather now.  

2 Nephi 6
3 I clothe the heavens with blackness, and I make sackcloth their covering.

4 The Lord God hath given me the tongue of the learned, that I should know how to speak a word in season unto thee, O house of Israel. When ye are weary he waketh morning by morning. He waketh mine ear to hear as the learned.

In the chapter heading it specifically states the Savior will have the tongue of the learned. I've read this many times before but I've never thought of it as the Savior's thoughts. That completely changes how I read Isaiah verses. The imagery is so beautiful. Thinking of this as the Savior gives it a whole new dimension. Why did I only notice this now? I've always thought of this as written in Isaiah's voice.

Pesonal Peace - Elder Gene R. Cook
The peace to which I am referring is not just a temporary tranquility. It is an abiding deep happiness and spiritual contentment.
We all long for peace. Peace is not just safety or lack of war, violence, conflict, and contention. Peace comes from knowing that the Savior knows who we are and knows that we have faith in Him, love Him, and keep His commandments, even and especially amid life’s devastating trials and tragedies.
How do we stay close to the Savior? Humbling ourselves before God, praying always, repenting of sins, entering the waters of baptism with a broken heart and contrite spirit, and becoming true disciples of Jesus Christ are profound examples of the righteousness that is rewarded by abiding peace