Urban Poly Princess

Blessing right???!!!

Tomorrow Hene works AGAIN until 11pm. I would've cooked him something tonight but I thought I had time as in I thought he worked until 11 although it's very nice he just worked until 8pm tonight. I went upstairs and did laundry. I can't stop everything in my life to cater to my uncle. I understand he's trying to conserve gas and all that. I try very hard to be the sunshiny niece BUUUT I get tired. I don't cook for myself every night let alone someone else. I don't have money to shell out all the time. This is getting old BUT he is my uncle who is trying to get back into full activity. He has 8 or 9 kids. I would hope someone was kind to my dad when he visited them. I miss my dad so much. I want to be nice to his family AND I will continue to be welcoming. It's just old.

He borrowed money from me once. I am NOT going to make that a habit and I never have money anyway. His wife paid me back by giving her daughter money to pay me back. They paid me back minus $20. Of course I'm too embarrassed to ask about it although I NEED my $20. When I went to conference with Carline and Jen she drove there. I gave her $5 in Brigham City to help pay for gas. Instead of just thanking me she told me I had to give her $10. I did BUT I didn't like that. Gas has gone up and Jen doesn't have a job. She probably needed the money. HOWEVER, if I knew that would happen I WOULD NOT HAVE GONE. I AM NEEEVER GOING TO BE IN THAT SITUATION AGAIN. THAT SHOULD BE CLEAR BEFORE ANYONE GOES ANYWHERE. Don't invite me just because you need someone to help pay for gas.!!! It was good I went BUT that situation was NOT good. I actually felt the spirit tell me to clarify that before I went. I ignored that because I didn't want people feeling uncomfortable. STUPID. I gave $10 to this new student who makes tamales too. She is Mexican and a new convert. I like her a lot.

We had PAC meeting today I completely forgot about. Sharla came to the library to get me. I emailed my letter to Heather Gunn and DID NOT cc her boss or my boss. I forwarded the email to them later. Now I've given her a couple days. It's time for me to ask AGAIN. I see how she responds to me when I DON'T cc her boss AND there is a huge difference.

I guess that's the only way she'll respond. I'm going to email her in the morning and if I STILL fail to hear anything I'll call someone to find out.