Urban Poly Princess

I was too late and I missed taking the sacrament. I wore my white gogo boots I bought from that lady on Cache Valley Classifieds. They are beautiful AND comfortable. I had a lot of compliments for them today. We had our combined RS/EQ meeting right after sacrament meeting I found Justin and confirmed our timetable and warned him about my family thing. He's fine with it.

He didn't stay for our linger longer dinner or at least I didn't see him. Krista always sits with Rich so she can talk to him in Mandarin so that means I end up talking to him too. Rich just keeps getting better and better. Of course he does. When Lauresa and I visited Elizabeth Webster she talked about how she made her Senior English class read Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand. I didn't like that book although I did like how fresh or different it was from anything else I've ever read. Rich said Atlas Shrugged is his favorite book.

I just keep finding out things about Rich that I looove. I'm not fond of Atlas Shrugged BUT I love that he read it AND Fountainhead. How the hell can someone be sooo perfect but NOT for me to the point I get told that at 3am AND can't sleep? I know that's why it happened. Rich's mother is white. Just like my friend only Rich looks more Asian. Heavenly Father knew he would check all the boxes for me. That is why I was told at 3am and couldn't sleep.  

Rich was telling us the last girl he went out with is a fantastic kisser. Krista asked him how he determined that. He said he saw stars BUT that he wasn't going to see her again because she has 2 kids. I told him yeah you have 4 but he said she doesn't have time to date him and he just wants to get to know her, NOT her children.

Elizabeth walked by where we were sitting in the Gym. Rich said she was tall. I told him she was awesome and he should ask her out. That's how we started talking about Atlas Shrugged. He told me to set him up with her for a date tomorrow so I did. He said he'd pick her up at 6:30. I don't think he really thought I'd do it BUT I did. He asked me what her name was when I told him he had a date tomorrow. He wanted me to do this so I don't know why he isn't happy.

He asked me why I wasn't in sacrament meeting and I told him I was late because I'm still not used to my schedule since I just started working in the temple. He asked me if I was an ordinance worker and I told him I was. He reminds me of my friend in that it feels like I know him very well. I love how confident he is. My friend doesn't have his confidence. I don't know what the difference is. Rich reminds me so much of myself. He is brilliant AND confident. He knows he's amazing too.

Maybe it's the shy thing. I don't think Rich was ever shy. My friend used to be extremely shy so I don't think he communicates well. He has the mechanics down fine, he just says the most inappropriate things sometimes. It's why I know he's not a player. Players are never not smooth. He is mean a lot when he never needs to be that way. I don't know where he gets that from. He is real BUT sometimes we might feel a certain way BUT we need to be able to ignore that because it may not warrant ACTUALLY it rarely warrants an emotional response. He also ALWAYS assumes the worst about me.

It's why I told him I love him. I knew that was risky, I'm NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM. BUT I do love him and appreciate him. I wanted him to know I would NEVER do anything to hurt him so he would quit tripping. I like that he helped me when my tire was flat. I like that he doesn't expect anything from me when he helps me. I love that he first wants to do what his heavenly father wants him to do. Spiritually he is EXACTLY what I want him to be. I want to fall in love with someone with that testimony. I wish that would hurry up and happen.