Urban Poly Princess

Why am I up at this stupid hour???!!! Because my Father in Heaven loves me very much and he never lets me sleep if there's something important I need to pay attention to and this time I need to avoid my home teacher Rich. He's sweet and kind BUT spiritually although I don't know him well enough to tell, he's NOT what I want AT ALL. I am sooo grateful Sis. Sonasi asked if they could come too. What the hell would I have done if they hadn't. Who knows if Krista will show up or not. It is at 6am and I'm not going to let him go out of his way and not show up BUUUT I am NEVER letting this happen again. You can't teach seminary if you're divorced. I don't trust him.

He's easy to talk to and fine. Bad combination for me if I need to avoid him AND he was made my home teacher BUUUT I know without a doubt I need to steer clear of him. I'm not tired now but I probably will be later. I get it.

I am also thinking about how much I don't like this couch even as I sit on it. It has some sort of manmade texture seared into the leather that makes it look fake. The white stitching is just bad. I don't want to pay for something I don't like. I don't care if Jeff and Rich helped me get rid of my love-seat Sunday. I will sit on one of my chairs or on the damn floor. I don't like paying for something I hate. I'm wide awake now. I'm going to jump in the shower then read my scriptures and a conference talk.

I have a very clear picture of Rich. As annoying as my mother is I can see myself being an idiot with Rich. Even if I did have a kid with him he wouldn't give a damn because he already has 4. What was annoying is my mother kept saying how she ended up having to take care of my daughter. I kept thinking she is annoying AND she is BUUUT I wondered what on earth would put me in such a stupid position because I'm not sleeping with anyone I'm not married to-of course if I was an idiot and even if I did marry Rich first, there is nothing to keep him from divorcing me. Maybe I'm judging him too harshly but Heavenly Father only disturbs my sleep if it's important.

I'm sure he will make someone else very happy BUT I know without a doubt it's not me and I need to purposely avoid him as much as possible. THANK U SISTERS FOR GOING WITH ME IN A COUPLE HOURS!!! WIDE AWAKE NOW!!!