Urban Poly Princess

NO SLEEP = unintentional zombie day. Thursday is our annual United Way Day of Caring. I volunteered to paint. It'll be nice to do something different for the most part of the day.

As conference approaches I'm excited to attend. I'm so sleepy right now however. I am just finishing the ice of I think a 36 oz Diet Dr. Pepper. It's the only thing that I can do to keep awake.My visiting teachers are coming over at 6:15 or right when I'm done with work. After their visit I can't wait to sleep!!! I love my visiting teachers because they are real. Tamma reminds me of Tiffany that used to work with me. Nice on the surface BUT she showed me some of her passive-aggressive crap today AND the last few times I've interacted with her at choir or ward activities. I'm not sure what spurred that but it isn't genuine. If I am going to be a B I will just do it. The white girls that have shown this side to me are nice on the surface but have a way of undercutting anything positive they do. It is sinister. I think it helps them feel like they are fine. Anyone will eventually see through that. I'm not stupid and I am more than up to counteracting that although it is really just a drain on my energy. The gospel is love and joy. Why would anyone try to tear someone else down. Maybe I met another Tiffany so I can learn something. I am going to try to respond with kindness, sincerity and love.

It hurt and shocked me when Tiffany manifested this to me. It's an inner deviousness that might as well be wickedness. They are fooling themselves when they act so conniving. Everything has an ulterior motive.