Urban Poly Princess

This is the third year I'm doing this and the third year Stevens-Henager is participating. There were different groups as usual and this time I painted at the Employment Center around 300 South and Main. It seems like a group home for people with mental disabilities but I'm not really sure. Lisa Lister works there and I saw her. She introduced me to several of the residents? although I don't think they sleep there. It's some sort of group home.

It was fun to do with a large group. We got a lot done quickly. I felt sick the entire day like I had food poisoning from something. I feel a little better. Something's wrong with my television reception but I don't know what. I tried to hook up my computer to the TV and I don't know how to do it. It is something easy I am sure, I just have no idea. I have a lot of laundry to do.'t

There's a real estate packet I've tried to purchase 3x at the Brigerland Bookstore. Each time I've tried they've been closed and just ticked me off more and more. I'm getting excited about my real estate thing. My teacher told me I'm going to make so much money part time I'll want to quit my job and do it full time. I hope he's right although I don't plan on quitting my librarian job until March 25th. I'm anxious to start this but I still have lots more to learn and lots of classes too.

I am VERY happy it's Thursday and that I don't have work tomorrow. I still feel sleep deprived from Tuesday when I woke up at 3am. I do like Rich a lot and despite his desire to live in Mendon, his 4 kids AND an ex-wife, he is hard to beat since he's easy to get along with, is an attorney and is fine. He drives some sort of grey SUV too. I think it's a Toyota.

With Erin's example I wonder if I'm too picky BUT I still can't change how I feel. I don't want someone with 1 kid let alone 4. I also don't want ANYONE who was married before. Then, I think how I'm NOT anywhere close to getting married right now even when I had that freaky moment thinking I would get married right away as in last or this month. I wonder if it didn't happen because my friend's scared BUT I don't get that because I shouldn't be denied blessing regardless of ANYONE'S choice. Shouldn't I be provided with someone else then? If I don't start having kids right away I don't see myself giving birth to 3 daughters. My friend can probably get married when he's 60 and still have children. I don't have that luxury. My child-bearing years are limited.

Erin is happy and Roger AND Rich are in my ward. Doesn't that mean they are worthy to be dated? I don't believe in accidents. Why did Josh leave my ward and why did Rich just join and then become my home teacher? I know without a doubt I need to stay away from Rich BUUUT why can't I be led to someone I enjoy, am attracted to, is intelligent, from Hawaii, 1/2 Chinese AND an RM?

I'm done with Ether. I haven't read Nephi in awhile. Time to do that.

1Nephi 1
 11 And they came down and went forth upon the face of the earth; and the first came and ^astood before my father, and gave unto him a ^bbook, and bade him that he should read.
12 And it came to pass that as he read, he was filled with the^aSpirit of the Lord.

As a librarian I just love how important writing and books are to salvation. Scriptures are such a treasure. Even books that aren't scripture provide us with a series of epiphanies.

These Things I Know - Boyd K. Packer
Each of us must stay in condition to respond to inspiration and the promptings of the Holy Ghost. The Lord has a way of pouring pure intelligence into our minds to prompt us, to guide us, to teach us, and to warn us. Each son or daughter of God can know the things they need to 

He only gives us what we need, WHEN we need it. Here a little, there a little. I know he works that way, it just makes me feel stupid. I wish I could know NOW why things are happening or rather NOT happening the way they are.