Urban Poly Princess

I kept praying for myself, for the job I'm meant to have, for annoying and for Nick. I like Nick a lot and I know I could fall for him which is why although I extended the dinner invitation I know Heavenly Father made it not happen for a reason. He is having dinner with his sister Tina today. I know myself. Colton taught me that it isn't wise to spend time with someone you don't plan on marrying. Nick loves the same worldly things I do and he could keep my hair looking great forever. He is half Tongan which I also love, he is tall and if he'd just keep his beard shaved he is fine too. He is very kind and intelligent enough but I don't get that he's brilliant. He is very easy to get along with and he lives downtown at the Belvedere where I used to live. I loved living there too.

I knew when I was 14 my husband would be a world-wide leader to the church. I think the choices Nick has made in his life has prevented him from receiving that blessing. I wonder if he was planning on inviting me to dinner with his sister. Our Poly thing means I know we'd get along great. We have so much in common it would be easy for me to fall hard there. The gospel does not play the central role in his life like it should.

That is why WITH A CLEAR HEAD, I need to decide now I won't spend time with him. Annoying is not easy to get along with. He is as tempermental as me and he He is for the most part but he typically assumes the worst about me when I would never do anything like that to him. I really want to get to know him better but I fail to see how that could happen at all. Heavenly Father didn't yank that job away from me the way he did unless we were meant to have a future. I really believe that although I still have no idea how that's going to come to pass.

My drinks are in the car for dinner tonight. I haven't eaten yet but I'm going to pray and break my fast when I'm done with this. Dinner is at 6pm tonight. Those Hawaii boys Ben and Teancum are in my dinner group tonight along with Cindy and Darcy. It sounds like a fun group of 10 people. Cindy's in my dinner group too. I'm pretty sure she has a thing for annoying. I like her a lot but yeah NOOO!!! It would be nice to see him however even if he comes because she invited him. If I see him tonight I will really know it's meant to be. Too much? Maybe, I don't think so.