Urban Poly Princess

I was extremely tired Saturday and I was sister 1 for the 6am session. It was so difficult to keep my eyes open although somehow I managed to get through it. I didn't eat anything either and I was fine until my initiatory post at 9am. It was around 5 minutes to my last post and I began to feel lightheaded. Since I have these ordinances down cold a single word can set me off on whatever comes next. I had to do an ordinance over again because I started to mix up part of it with a prayer. NOT GOOD but good that I caught myself. I'm fine if I actually think about what I'm doing. I was on autopilot and since then I had to concentrate.

There are always so many Polynesians I see each Saturday. I'm happy about that. I rode in the elevator with a Tongan father of the bride and he told me he remembered me from my mission to Salt Lake City. He told me I was a sister Lauti then. Uh... no... I told him my father's name and that I served my mission in Sacramento and that there's someone who must look like me. He said it was about 10 years ago. I didn't feel like telling him it was actually over 20 years ago now. My dad would've been 72 now if he was still alive. This man looked like he was in his 50s.

Bishop attended ward temple night. The same women attend each time. No one but Steve was consistent with the guys. We did sealings. I looked up this guy because I didn't know his name and he was my partner for some of the sealings. It is Kent Pitcher. I remember him from a Sunday school class I attended because he said something and the spirit was definitely there. He is short although not as short as Steve and he isn't unattractive even with his receding hairline. At our veeery hooot BBQ Friday however he killed any thought of getting to know him better at all. He went out of his way to be very friendly to me and to sit by me.

My friend Sam sat near me too. He is divorced and has several daughters. Kent began complaining about his ex-wife and how she reported him for bringing religion to his children all the time. Hell to the nooo!!! He also made sure to talk about how old he was in front of me. He is 43. Hahaha - I love how he and Steve assumed I'd have a problem with their ages. NOOO it is actually the divorced with several children I have a huge problem with.

I've eliminated a lot of people in my head because of that. I just think ANY 2 people can make a marriage work if they both work on it. Of course the church allows them to attend the ward so I shouldn't hold that against anyone. The 4th of July is fast approaching. I am grateful the temple is closed for most of July anyway. I neeed this break. My interview with Trish is on Monday the 6th at 2pm. If I get that Youth services librarian position I'm going to have to change my temple shift. Returning to Wednesday nights is perfect for me.

I haven't heard from annoying at all so I think I'm going to have to eliminate him soon. Two more days are left in June. I hope he is doing well and I wish him the best. At least we got rid of the hostility. I am happy about that ALTHOUGH I wish there were more. Despite his temper I never have seen him violent I know a relationship with him would require a lot of work but I feel like I've done a lot of that already. I remember spending the 4th with him and other ward members that one year. I ALSO spent the 24th with him that year for Pioneer Day that I decided to stay in Logan for. What a huuuge mistake that was. He was on a date with Julie who I thought was sooo great at the time. I still think she's great just not the way I first supposed when I actually spent time with her and got to know her better. Her feelings about her mission really disappointed me. She's not as bright as she first seems either. I hope she is happy with her new husband right now.

I had to tell annoying I didn't EVER want to hang out with him and his date. I cannot believe I had to tell him that. I know his experience was limited but I seriously wanted to kill him. My friend Jonni was also there. Sooo NOOOT cool. He is an idiot if he didn't know Jonni liked him a whole hell of a lot. She is very cool and sweet. It is extremely bad form to be on a date AND be on that date with 2 other women who like you. I went out of my way to tell him that because I wanted to avoid a repeat.

It was certainly bad enough to be in his FHE group with a bunch of women who attended just because he was there. A couple FHEs had him as the sole man with a bunch of women. After helping him and Mindy with that one FHE I was sooo done. If I hadn't agreed to do the next one, I would not have helped. I was working on my thesis for the last one but really I was never going to Mindy's house again. I really tried to help our group but after working veeery hard to pull off something well-attended and done well and having him pretend not to have read my email at our singles conference I was ticked and it just got worse when he didn't lift a finger to help me. Mindy did.

So why the hell do I still want something with annoying???!!! Revisiting these incidents in my mind makes me upset. BUUUT he is solid spiritually, brilliant, fun, is finishing school even if he's not done. He actually spent time working full time so he knows how to do that. He doesn't have an ex-wife, divorce or children. Even if he began having make-out sessions with every girl he's dated in the past 3-4 years I've known him, it is still better than the average LDS man who believes anything but sex is just fine before marriage.

In 2 days June will be done. That is my time-limit I've given myself for annoying. I should probably contact him but I don't want to email him or Facebook him and I got rid of his number the last time I did that. I wish he would contact me somehow but although I never doubted he wants that, unless he shows some effort it doesn't ultimately make a difference.