Urban Poly Princess

There are a lot of temple workers from my ward. 2 other girls serve Saturday mornings, another girl works in the baptistry that came to the stake chapel meeting. Rachel Magnusson, Renee's sister works Tuesday nights. Annette works in the children's center on Saturday mornings. I also saw Benson who isn't in my ward anymore but still comes to church and activities working at the veil. Nice although Steve was the only person who attended temple night, sealings AND FHE. Spencer was there tonight and he has been at other temple nights. BUUUT really? no one else?

It was sooo hot in there. They REALLY need to do something about that and with a big stake session the additional bodies did not help.

Lulu texted me from Hawaii. She is coming for a break in July. It'll be nice to see her.

I can't wait for stake conference this weekend. I haven't heard a squeak from annoying. It is not looking good or maybe it is. Maybe he just wanted to have a mature friendship again and doesn't plan to see me ever again. I'm still giving him the rest of June but I am feeling like it is more of me wasting my time.

I really want to meet someone interested in getting married soon. In getting to know me first. It is summer and there are so many activities I can force myself to attend. I want to progress and actually work on finding my husband. I would rather just work on getting to know annoying better but I'm not going to do all the work and he needs to give me A LOT MORE. I feel like my head and emotions have just gone backwards. I would like to think because things are going to be different now but I have no indication of that whatsoever.

This waiting thing sucks because I hate feeling like I have no control over the outcome of things in my life. I like to think there are abundant opportunities. I still feel like I should do the June thing, it just feels like I'm standing still - I am just a plant professionally and socially for the next week or 2.