Urban Poly Princess

If I was really fired so I could attend that picnic I know it wasn't just so I could feel better because I had a normal conversation with annoying. I have been so happy with that small conversation we had and I want him to be happy and I still believe I am what will do that for him but I don't want him to disappear either and I don't want to have to convince him of that. I don't doubt he knows that but I don't know why he can't do something about it either. Maybe he is. I haven't seen him for so long and it feels fantastic to be normal with him again BUUUT I've only ever been interested in being his friend because I want to see if it can develop into something more.

This is SOOO NOOOT easy. I don't want to risk ruining the friendship we FINALLY started again but I am going to do exactly that. He is still very easy to talk to when I finally did talk to him and I still feel like I've known him forever. I love his testimony. I like that he said bishop said things that were inappropriate for the stand. I like that he notices that stuff. I know why I was led there again and again because he loves his father in heaven and that is exactly what I want.

I will never doubt his faith and I know how rare that is - many people have testimonies but not everyone nourishes it. I like how he is active in the church. Annoying still talked to a bunch of women yesterday but he didn't flirt with each of them the way he used to do that.

He told me he moved to Layton because there are more women to date. We should've discussed that more but I think it was too soon for me although I did need something to get my mind off of my state of unemployment. We definitely need more conversations but I'm not sure when that'll occur.

I was thinking of my goals. I am going to become obsessed with fitness and Zumba is going to be my world the way it is Alisa's. I want to have a thriving real estate business asap AND a librarian position I can fly with. I also want to hurry up and find my husband. I don't have to pray about annoying. I already know he is husband-worthy. I wish he wasn't still in school but I am glad he'll be done in December AND it gives me time to get my financial self in order.