Urban Poly Princess

I was thinking seriously about annoying earlier today. I don't like his temper. It scares me. I don't think he would just randomly hit someone but I don't know about if he was provoked. I don't like this. I was thinking of how he'd react if I threw a drink in his face. I don't want to do that and I don't think I ever would but what if I was weak and angry and behaved that way? I can't say he'd just walk away from me. That one time I was being unreasonable when he said something about the Hawaiian pioneers I was livid. I did start to attack him verbally. He just walked away. Why am I assuming the worst? I don't usually fly off the handle like that but what if I did. I think walking away is the best reaction. Why am I afraid he'd hit me? I am sure I can be provocative in a mean way sometimes. BUT he probably has seen me at my worst. He never hit me then. Why did I think about this today? Violence is never acceptable. Throwing a drink over someone is never acceptable too. I've never actually done that to anyone. Why is my mind playing the what if game?