Urban Poly Princess

I wanted to do this for the less active sister Kristen that I visit. Helene and Carline were my sole attendees who didn't bring anything but that was alright since it was just the two of them. I made musubi and chicken stir-fry with noodles. Lauresa gave me an entire cheesecake for the "potluck"My friend from work invited me over and I was looking forward to that BUT I didn't go since I had no idea who would show up at this thing. I didn't see Kristen during sacrament meeting but Carline sat with her and told me she invited her to come over too. I wish she came.

Helene was talking about how she'll go on a date with anyone at least once. I won't. I didn't tell her that. I think anyone has the right and SHOULD refuse who they want to refuse ANYTIME. I don't see the problem with that. My friend said the same thing when I first met him. I feel pretty strongly about this however. I don't like wasting my time and I'm not going to spend time with you unless I want to do that. OR UNLESS the spirit tells me otherwise. AND UNLESS IT DOES THAT IS JUST FINE WITH ME!!!

I really want to apologize for overreacting. I don't want him to feel bad. I still can't believe he said that though. I'm sick of a lifetime of people making assumptions about me OR Polynesia. I'm either an idiot OR DON'T have a testimony. OR if I have one people are condescending and talk about how brown people have this childlike faith that is such a gift. My testimony is a gift. Maybe I do have childlike faith a good thing UNLESS it's said in a very condescending way which is all too often the case.

I don't think my friend is racist BUT between he and this other girl's talk today I felt that and I didn't like it. I know I'm oversensitive, it's just happened so much that I can't help but go there when things like this happen. I'm not trying to be this sensitive person that starts tripping over nothing. It just isn't nothing to me although I know expecting people to be aware of how they are being offensive is stupid.

I DIDN'T want to get upset with my friend BECAUSE our friendship is always so volatile. His temper is as bad as mine. How can that be a good thing???!!!